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[xxninjastarsxx]

I walked in and found Adam exactly where I expected to find him. I had no doubt he had the guts to do it, that was never the issue. It was what came after the kill of someone he truly loved that I had my reservations about. I lit my cigarette in silence, not knowing if he had heard my entrance or not. Of course he had, I was the one who taught him how to listen, and I always heard. I looked at him beyond my flame and the ashy mist that disintergrated from my mouth into the air. Looked at him hard and long, waiting for his eyes to betray all the sadness and hatred and loneliness that I'd already come to terms with. He had to learn, and this was the only way he really would. "He knows. He thinks I'm a complete bitch for doing this," the thought swayed in my mind. Good. I am a bitch, and hopefully that's exactly what he'll be. I don't want a weepy little girl by my side slaying the nastiest hell rotting species known to man, I want a bitch. He had no choice really, we were born with this "gift," if you can call it that. We can only watch with jealousy at the normalcy of our friends, who we lose years of sleep over protecting.

Adam turns, and to my pleasent surprise, betrays nothing. "A+," I think, as he asks me our token question in lieu of seeing my lit cigarette. "Get up," I say, pointing to the clearly human carcass," He's obviously not going anywhere." I don't enjoy rubbing it in, but it's better to make it sting than to let it go dull. We had to get to Libier's, and quickly. Of course the pretty little thing has to live practically on top of the HellMouth. My eyes were so tired they even felt red, but neither of us were about to let her give a blood sample without her permission. Adam's right, I am too dramatic.