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Jun 30, 2004 21:57

I think that moving up here was a really big step that needed to be taken in my life. It really closed that chapter of myself in Florida that I think was holding me down and opened up a new one up that I think and I hope will help me to not only be a better person to others but to also get my life on track for myself and my future.

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i just hope this provided some insight... xxmr_billxx July 1 2004, 02:03:20 UTC

sorry that it's so long. and it's really in random order. and i repeat a lot. and sorry if i offended anyone. i'm just glad to get this out.

<33333333333 sara

anonymous July 1 2004, 02:39:58 UTC

im not sure what to say first in a comment to this post...im glad ur doing better up there,i hope u make alot of new friends(which im sure u will,cuz ur awesome)...i would never forget u even if i wanted to,and the others wouldnt either...if anything,it will be awkard,quieter and boring w/out u being there,u have had an impact on all our lives down here aswell..as for john,if he blew u off like that,thats his loss,ur far too gorgeous and far too good of a personality to waste on someone that doesnt appreciate it...u let us know when ur in tampa and we can arrange plans to do things that are good for everyones schedules...love ya,and miss ya -Kris (the one in tampa)....

Taking it from the top. anonymous July 1 2004, 15:07:33 UTC

Good luck to your Uncle Louis. Help him live the best he can while he can. There's no point in being sick and still able to move but just lying around and moping ( ... )

anonymous July 1 2004, 23:41:59 UTC

Wow, I don't even know where to begin. Let's see... I'm glad to hear that things are working out for you up in Georgia. I'm about your great uncle. I'm sorry about John, too. He was wrong for not even talking to you in the end. I'm sure you'll find someone even better. Heh. There's just so much I want to say about the next issue... but I won't exactly go into detail or say alot. I'll shorten it... bascially, I never knew that YOU, of all people, felt that way about me. I just wish you could have discussed it with be before putting it, even if you're not specific, in your live journal. (And everyone that knows what this is about can pretty much figure out who I am)

xxmr_billxx July 1 2004, 23:59:04 UTC

Listen,
I tried to tell you the best that i could the last time that i was at your house, lying on your bed, after we talked to Mr. Mesh. Here, i'm just putting it more bluntly because you may have heard what i said, but you haven't listened. I'm worried and you know that, I've been worried. That's why i said this, and it's not even that i've said somethign bad i don't believe. "you" are just one of the things that i've been worrying about in my head for a long time adn that still knaws at me. I've tried to tell you somewhat how ive felt about all of this at the mall, when e are alone, in our many many boring journalism classes together, and i know others have tried to talk to you too,but it just hasn't stuck yet. I don't agree with a lot of stuff that you do, btu also a lot of the stuff that others don't agree with you about, i don't agree with them. I'm not going against you in any way. I love you always and forever. Best friends, remember?

anonymous July 2 2004, 00:42:37 UTC

Yes, I still want to be best friends. I hate myself for causing you so much worry. I'm very sorry for that. For the record I really was listening to you that night at my house. In fact, it was so hard for me to sleep because I just kept thinking about some of the things we talked about. I know a couple of others have tried to talk to me, but they way some, not all - only some - have put it did not sound really sincere. It felt more like a threat that if I didn't stop what I was doing and get back on track that none of them would be my friend anymore. And yes, I have soaked in every single conversation I've had with any of my friends. I do appreciate them, but I think it's time to stop now. I have not been doing any of those things for months now. And as for the so-called 'slut'. I do not want to hang out with 'them' anymore period. The only reason they were around me after a while was because I had absolutely no one to talk to in P.E. and unfortunately enough, my close friends did not have the same lunch as me. So I would just either ( ... )

xxmr_billxx July 2 2004, 01:34:41 UTC

I love you.

Continued anonymous July 1 2004, 23:54:52 UTC

First of all, my perceptions of right and wrong are NOT blurred. I know perfectly well what I did was wrong. That doesn't mean I'm confused. I just made a bad judgement and error. And I can not believe you would even anonymously MENTION my 'tragedy'. I've never used that as and excuse, if anything I want everyone just to forget about it and stop talking about it because whenever someone says something about it, you have NO IDEA what it does to me on the inside. I have to fight myself so hard not to cry. And how is it supposed to 'set me straight'? What, a moral lesson that we aren't guarenteed another day to live? Or that the things we charish most could be taken away at any moment so don't take it for granted? Or maybe it's that seeing 'something' taken away should teach me to live life to the fullest and live it right? Yeah, real optimistic. Well, I would really like to know what it is supposed to do for me.