You belong with me....
Well well well....its been quite a long time since i have written in this thing. So lets see.......
Broke up with Clay last March
Dated a jerkoff
Jerkoff dumped me on my 23rd bday
Clay was in town for 3 months
Realized i wasnt over him
yep thats my life in a nutshell. =]
So im back to where i was ayear ago....in love with someone who lives 1200 miles away. but we are not together currently. The good news is that i finally have my anxiety under control. =] So im thinking i still might move to NE in 6 months. For some fucked up reason i cant get over clay, ugh. its annoying. Ha, But...i dont want to get over him. I LOVE him. I really do. <3 he means everything to me and i owe it to myself to move out there and see if i could be with him for good. I need to follow my heart for once and see where it leads me,...i need to take a chance and prove to myself that i can make it on my own. i think it would be a really positive thing for me. I mean i will miss my mama like mad but she supports me and that makes this a lot easier. So no pressure right now,,,but just thinkin things. So while clay was here he finally told me to my face that he loves me =] OMG i was so thrilled. That meant sooooo much to me.. ive waited for so long to hear him say that to me and it was amazing. i miss him so much. My heart breaks everyday im without him here, How lame i sound, How complicated it is to tell each other we love one another but cant be together. I hate it. its not fair. i want to be with him so much, More than he will ever know. And i only hope that it will happen soon. Im hoping to visit him for new years =] i want him to be my new years kiss again,,,,this would be our 3rd one. I want it to stay that way. <3
Ok im done sobbing. So im starting school in January. Work is going well. But nothing too much else to report. I have a pretty uneventful life!
ok im done for now....im gunna go to bed.
Broke up with Clay last March
Dated a jerkoff
Jerkoff dumped me on my 23rd bday
Clay was in town for 3 months
Realized i wasnt over him
yep thats my life in a nutshell. =]
So im back to where i was ayear ago....in love with someone who lives 1200 miles away. but we are not together currently. The good news is that i finally have my anxiety under control. =] So im thinking i still might move to NE in 6 months. For some fucked up reason i cant get over clay, ugh. its annoying. Ha, But...i dont want to get over him. I LOVE him. I really do. <3 he means everything to me and i owe it to myself to move out there and see if i could be with him for good. I need to follow my heart for once and see where it leads me,...i need to take a chance and prove to myself that i can make it on my own. i think it would be a really positive thing for me. I mean i will miss my mama like mad but she supports me and that makes this a lot easier. So no pressure right now,,,but just thinkin things. So while clay was here he finally told me to my face that he loves me =] OMG i was so thrilled. That meant sooooo much to me.. ive waited for so long to hear him say that to me and it was amazing. i miss him so much. My heart breaks everyday im without him here, How lame i sound, How complicated it is to tell each other we love one another but cant be together. I hate it. its not fair. i want to be with him so much, More than he will ever know. And i only hope that it will happen soon. Im hoping to visit him for new years =] i want him to be my new years kiss again,,,,this would be our 3rd one. I want it to stay that way. <3
Ok im done sobbing. So im starting school in January. Work is going well. But nothing too much else to report. I have a pretty uneventful life!
ok im done for now....im gunna go to bed.