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I've been crying since I got home from hanging out with radhey and carley. Then I read everyone's eljay's and everyones so happy, it just makes me more depressed. I'm jelous of everyone, I never get to be happy, I never get anything to go my way, I never get a day without bursting into tears for all together probably 3ish hours. I dont want cait to get me anything from the vans warp tour, it'll just make me even more depressed. I seriously can't take it anymore, I've been crying so hard that I'm shaking, I've got a horrible headache, and my eyes are all poofy from crying. I just can't take this anymore, I just don't want to be in this world anymore, I really don't. I just ... idk