too much of a good thing
i love how nothing in my life comes in small doses, or at convinent times. i'm thinking maybe its about time i actually find a boy and dont run away as soon as i feel myself getting a little close. i mean, what good is being alone doing me? yeah, none, thats right. i feel like while certain aspects of my life are getting better, other aspects are falling to shit. its hard to enjoy good things when you're losing people you love. i need to stop bitching about everything and actually change something in my life, since this whole 'fate is already determined so whats the point in making something happen' thing isnt working out.i mean, sure everything thats meant to happen will but its a fucking boring waste to just sit around and let everything pass you by. i'm sick of letting everything happen to me rather than making something happen for myself. everything just falls into my lap and i never really care what happens, i need something worth caring about...
and i miss photoshop. i used to mess around with it like all the time and now i dont have it anymore and my pictures arent cool with out it. i tried to find it on the internet or something but its not there and i think it costs alot or something, either way, if you have it, lend it to me so i can go back to entertaining myself with design, because design makes me happy.
jophy's recitle thing is tomrrow night, i'm aslo supposed to see owen though i doubt that will end up happening, and i think i'm supposed to be working at stuff-it and thre is no way that will end up happening no matter what.
i'm going to enjoy my silky smooth freshly shaved legs. its little things like this that make my day a little better.
<333 Melissa Ann
and i miss photoshop. i used to mess around with it like all the time and now i dont have it anymore and my pictures arent cool with out it. i tried to find it on the internet or something but its not there and i think it costs alot or something, either way, if you have it, lend it to me so i can go back to entertaining myself with design, because design makes me happy.
jophy's recitle thing is tomrrow night, i'm aslo supposed to see owen though i doubt that will end up happening, and i think i'm supposed to be working at stuff-it and thre is no way that will end up happening no matter what.
i'm going to enjoy my silky smooth freshly shaved legs. its little things like this that make my day a little better.
<333 Melissa Ann