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ok so last entry.. idk what i was thinking when i wrote some of those parts..
so i dont like ANYONE. im ready for school to start to get back into things. people dont understand why i love school so much. well heres the thing.. school is my escape. i use it to get away from everything.. the parents the crazy feelings.. the ex. ugh speaking of he blew mat off today.. i think it was my fault. oh well hes an ass. but yea anyway.. i love everything about school. well the homework im not a fan of but seriously.. i love the learning and i love the projects and i love the friends and the teachers sometimes... i know im going to be there my whole life. for those who dont know i want to teach second grade. and this year i got some of my favorite teachers and some new ones i've never even heard of but hey its the element of suprise.
so my summer has been long.. and very hard. it started off great but ended horrible. i made some mistakes i shouldnt have even concidered.. did stuff with people i shouldnt have.. but then again you need mistakes to make you a better person and i know that i've learned from my mistakes and i know i will NEVER do some of them again..i've been betrayed and i betrayed some friends of my own.. idk what came over me this summer. i planned this big funn crazy summer and yet.. i got nothing but the lost of some close friends and my heart broke. but thats life. anyway i vow to make this one of my best years ever. idc how much work and how much im going to hate doing it..
ok well before i write a book im going. if you read all the way to here i love you! and you mean the world to me...
"It's hard to wait around for something you know might never happen, but it's even harder to give up when you know it's everything you want."-some guys profile..
<3 amanda