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so the past couple of days have been really funn but really hard.i had to do somethings i didnt want to but even so it was for the best. and then i did somethings out of boredom which i enjoyed very much! last night autumn and i talked on the phone for 3 hours and 45 minutish and we got so much cleared up.. autumn i want you to know i would never hate you for anything! expecially over a guy.. thats just dumb! even so i would never be able to call you auttie again! lmao your still my auttie wattie bear! good times! lol. and then i finally realized that things with me and brian need to be over.. for good. no more running back to him whenever i get hurt or feel lonely just to have him care for only a second and then brake me again.. i've decided its not worth me getting hurt over anymore.. but i do love him. and i always will love him. and i know its going to take time but i will get over him.. speaking of his staying the night tonight or tomorrow. dk.
i miss my younglife people! molly heather and erin! ah this summer has been so lame without them! and mcallie and hannah too. i miss those girls like idk what!
i felt kind of stupid today.. i pulled a me. i thought i saw rai walking mydnyght and i was in the car with liz's mom and her and i rolled down the window and starting yelling hey rai to this random girl. she turned out not to be rai...
it reminded me of the time autumn was driving to sages and i thought some girl was roxanne and jenna so i was like HEY HEY YOU! and she turned around so scared.. yea yea im a ditz.. but you all still love me!
im starting to like someone i shouldnt.. its bad. ugh i hate it.
<3 amanda