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Aight, I'm going to keep this blog secret. Its not going to become some broadcast of my feelings for all my friends to see and then come and talk to me about. So, i wrote this poem liiike yesterday. I cant decide if i like it or not.
Even though i promised,
I'm sorry to say i did it again.
I know its hurting you too
But at least this time it was thin.
Even though i promised
That a blade wouldn't touch my wrist
When the pain and stress is far too heavy,
I must cut and squeeze my fist.
Even though i promised,
that getting help would solve this,
But no matter how hard i f*king try,
I'll never experience bliss.
Even though i promised,
Something has gone terribly wrong,
No matter how hard i try,
I can only be this darkened song.
Pain is my middle name,
even though i try to hide it.
I bet You'd never know that at night,
I throw a fit.
Just please, don't look at my wrist
for it will remind me
that i broke a promise to you
Just u gotta make a promise to me, that u wont leave.
And please don't break it.
Its about my hurt and pain because i promised so many ppl that i wouldnt do this, but sadly i broke it. My boyfriend saw my wrist tonight and he couldnt have been any sadder. (i dono if thats a word or not) Oh well, he's been through it but...i dono it hurts me to hurt him..u know? I just wish i could stop, but i cant. Its such a bad habbit. Alas...
Even though i promised,
I'm sorry to say i did it again.
I know its hurting you too
But at least this time it was thin.
Even though i promised
That a blade wouldn't touch my wrist
When the pain and stress is far too heavy,
I must cut and squeeze my fist.
Even though i promised,
that getting help would solve this,
But no matter how hard i f*king try,
I'll never experience bliss.
Even though i promised,
Something has gone terribly wrong,
No matter how hard i try,
I can only be this darkened song.
Pain is my middle name,
even though i try to hide it.
I bet You'd never know that at night,
I throw a fit.
Just please, don't look at my wrist
for it will remind me
that i broke a promise to you
Just u gotta make a promise to me, that u wont leave.
And please don't break it.
Its about my hurt and pain because i promised so many ppl that i wouldnt do this, but sadly i broke it. My boyfriend saw my wrist tonight and he couldnt have been any sadder. (i dono if thats a word or not) Oh well, he's been through it but...i dono it hurts me to hurt him..u know? I just wish i could stop, but i cant. Its such a bad habbit. Alas...