Wedding-chick-flick-movie induced coma
I've been listening to Susan Tedeschi all week and I can't stop singing It Hurts So Bad. It literally hurts so bad.
I fucking hate dating. Might rather be alone forever.
Why is every girl movie about getting married? It's disgusting! And it makes absolutely no sense in my mind. I saw He's Not That In To You with Dawn and Shawna tonight. Makes me cringe! Those "tips" have always been common sense to me. If a guy blows me off, he only had that one chance. Never again will I let the same person hurt me twice. It has happened once in my life and it ended badly... Obviously. Why would I chase after someone who didn't want me? As much as I'd fucking give anything to do it and I want to call him so badly... What if? What if he just doesn't fucking care? And most likely, he really doesn't! Despite what anyone (including him) tells you.
So yeah, I fucking hate dating so much. It's like working a part time job with no pay. I meet a ton of people and it sucks my energy. So why do I still do it? Because if I didn't I'd sit in my hole of an apartment alone every night and think about what could have been and slowly start bitching about how I'm alone.
I refuse to fucking get that low no matter how low I actually feel.
Which is why I'm probably at this point in the first place. Susan's right. The biggest fool was me!
I fucking hate dating. Might rather be alone forever.
Why is every girl movie about getting married? It's disgusting! And it makes absolutely no sense in my mind. I saw He's Not That In To You with Dawn and Shawna tonight. Makes me cringe! Those "tips" have always been common sense to me. If a guy blows me off, he only had that one chance. Never again will I let the same person hurt me twice. It has happened once in my life and it ended badly... Obviously. Why would I chase after someone who didn't want me? As much as I'd fucking give anything to do it and I want to call him so badly... What if? What if he just doesn't fucking care? And most likely, he really doesn't! Despite what anyone (including him) tells you.
So yeah, I fucking hate dating so much. It's like working a part time job with no pay. I meet a ton of people and it sucks my energy. So why do I still do it? Because if I didn't I'd sit in my hole of an apartment alone every night and think about what could have been and slowly start bitching about how I'm alone.
I refuse to fucking get that low no matter how low I actually feel.
Which is why I'm probably at this point in the first place. Susan's right. The biggest fool was me!