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so i'm back. <3
i got back from leeds last night. i had a cool time. yet things just seemed a bit awkward in a way, with me and nat. i didnt really know what to say. it was just like i felt i wasn't there sometimes to her. maybe it's just me being totally stupid and not thinking.
i didn't get to meet debbie. i didn't say anything to nat about it because i don't even think she wanted me meeting her. although she said she didn't mind it was always in the back of my mind. i'm grateful for nat and nat's parents having me and for everything but this is just me being selfish isn't it? i do appreciate it. but then i think maybe nobody thinks i do. i always seem to think like that. when people say something and then i feel sometimes they don't mean it. maybe it's only with people i truly trust. it would make sense.
i met up with amanda before the gig on tuesday night. i used to be with her. as in girlfriend. it was strange. having known her for nearly two years then suddenly seeing her. she's so tall. i felt so small walking with her. but it was cool to meet. the gig was so so good. i put all pictures on my fotki. chekkit www.fotki.com/myfavouriteweapon
i want deb
i got back from leeds last night. i had a cool time. yet things just seemed a bit awkward in a way, with me and nat. i didnt really know what to say. it was just like i felt i wasn't there sometimes to her. maybe it's just me being totally stupid and not thinking.
i didn't get to meet debbie. i didn't say anything to nat about it because i don't even think she wanted me meeting her. although she said she didn't mind it was always in the back of my mind. i'm grateful for nat and nat's parents having me and for everything but this is just me being selfish isn't it? i do appreciate it. but then i think maybe nobody thinks i do. i always seem to think like that. when people say something and then i feel sometimes they don't mean it. maybe it's only with people i truly trust. it would make sense.
i met up with amanda before the gig on tuesday night. i used to be with her. as in girlfriend. it was strange. having known her for nearly two years then suddenly seeing her. she's so tall. i felt so small walking with her. but it was cool to meet. the gig was so so good. i put all pictures on my fotki. chekkit www.fotki.com/myfavouriteweapon
i want deb