julie = math?
i don't want to tell anyone, because that would make it true. and i don't want it to be true.
but i'm afraid to tell anyone, because i'm afraid they'd reject all of its validity. and that would be embarrassing and insulting.
i'm driving myself crazy.
i always say, no one else would know better.
why can't i trust that now? why do i always need someone else to tell me i'm right? or agree with someone when they tell me i'm wrong, even if they really don't have a clue?
i need to figure myself out.
i feel like a calculus problem.
i suck at calculus.
but i'm afraid to tell anyone, because i'm afraid they'd reject all of its validity. and that would be embarrassing and insulting.
i'm driving myself crazy.
i always say, no one else would know better.
why can't i trust that now? why do i always need someone else to tell me i'm right? or agree with someone when they tell me i'm wrong, even if they really don't have a clue?
i need to figure myself out.
i feel like a calculus problem.
i suck at calculus.