Pressure
So this post was definitely originally gonna be about something else. But you know what? I'm done. I've absolutely had it today. This is probably one of the worst nights I've had in a while. Like really and truly. I fucking give up. The past couple days have sucked so bad I can even describe to you. I don't know why I even try to keep relationships with people. I feel like a constant burden to anyone and everyone I talk to and a lot of times now I don't even get replies. Not to text messages, IMs, messages, emails. Anything. I hate to sound dramatic but I guess its just really fucking hard to keep up a friendship with me. I must be really fucking high maintenance because I feel like no one ever just wants to talk to me. And no one ever speaks to me first. I initiate the conversation and it usually goes nowhere. And I'm tired. I don't know how its taken me this long to realize. But I give up. I'm done. What the fuck ever dude. If anyone evens sees this, its probably not a good idea to even try talking to me anymore because I will only let you down. Regardless of the situation. It ends in disappointment. And please don't go and think this is about anyone who might be reading this because chances are, its not. So just ignore this. Everyone else will.