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I know this is my 4th entry in a row but I have to just vent.
This weekend utterly fucking sucked. I give up with everything. I am so worn out and can't handle much anymore. The littlest things I freak out over. I don't even know what I can do to just get over things. I always wonder what it would be like when I die, what would happen, would it be a tragic death or just on purpose? Who knows. I am just fed up with everything and some people and I can't stand it anymore. This might sound selfish and for once I am being selfish, I need to be happy. Yet, people say they want me to be happy but at the same time KNOW that they are stopping me from being happy. They are getting in the way. I don't get it...friends? i have about 4 of them. Lucky me...I mean the friends I have are great, but where are the rest when you need them?
If you don't like some of the stuff I say in here, your problem its called a journal, thoughts and feelings are supposed to be shared in this.
This weekend utterly fucking sucked. I give up with everything. I am so worn out and can't handle much anymore. The littlest things I freak out over. I don't even know what I can do to just get over things. I always wonder what it would be like when I die, what would happen, would it be a tragic death or just on purpose? Who knows. I am just fed up with everything and some people and I can't stand it anymore. This might sound selfish and for once I am being selfish, I need to be happy. Yet, people say they want me to be happy but at the same time KNOW that they are stopping me from being happy. They are getting in the way. I don't get it...friends? i have about 4 of them. Lucky me...I mean the friends I have are great, but where are the rest when you need them?
If you don't like some of the stuff I say in here, your problem its called a journal, thoughts and feelings are supposed to be shared in this.