for clarification
i just wanted to know your thoughts:
A) is it better to think and question and be really confused and frustrated and unhappy...
orrrrr
B) is it better to believe in something completely, even though it doesnt really make sense, and follow the crowd so that you're content and you dont have to think about things because even if it doesnt all fit, you're happy with not having to work out all the kinks?
bc even though the first option is the one im taught to follow, its starting to suck and i feel like maybe i think too hard, and maybe im wasting time here. maybe it doesnt matter so much about what you believe but about the feelings....thinking or feeling..hm. i dont know! maybe im wrong. maybe nothing is meant to be fully explained and that is why im frustrated because im looking for a perfect answer. not all the kinks will be worked out...but how do i know im not settling for less? AH.
A) is it better to think and question and be really confused and frustrated and unhappy...
orrrrr
B) is it better to believe in something completely, even though it doesnt really make sense, and follow the crowd so that you're content and you dont have to think about things because even if it doesnt all fit, you're happy with not having to work out all the kinks?
bc even though the first option is the one im taught to follow, its starting to suck and i feel like maybe i think too hard, and maybe im wasting time here. maybe it doesnt matter so much about what you believe but about the feelings....thinking or feeling..hm. i dont know! maybe im wrong. maybe nothing is meant to be fully explained and that is why im frustrated because im looking for a perfect answer. not all the kinks will be worked out...but how do i know im not settling for less? AH.