its over...

[xxhurtxinsidexx]

Well its over with me and Jaquese because if i keep hurting a certain someone by going out with her im going to end up killing myself. So I told Jaquese fuck it and its over. jaquese wanted me to tell ashlee to just fuck off and i couldnt. she was pissed at me because i told her a lil secret of mine. i know shes going to go around and tell everyone

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[i_angel_of_love]

Anytime you feel
Like you just can't hold on
Just hold on to my love
And I'll help you be strong
But you're so afraid to lose
And, baby, I can't reach your heart
I can't face this wall
That's keeping us apart

When I could be the one to show you
Ev'rything you've missed before
Just hold on now, 'cause I could be
The one to give you more
Let you know

Anytime you need love, baby
I'm on your side
Just let me be the one
I can make it all right, I can make it all right
Anytime you need love, baby
You're in my heart
I can make it all right

Ive been there before just hang on. Im here for you even though i dont really know you. I didnt cut... i scraced... i still have scars on my wrist from that. It can be hard sometimes. But thoughs who love you will stand by you or if they dont want to see you hurt then they will try to distance themselves... but they probably still care. Just hang in there... And realize things could be worse... like my life right now... just took a turn for the worse... but i think ill make it through... cause i know theres someone there for me. So ill be there for you. If you ever need neone. Good luck.

thank you

[xxhurtxinsidexx]

Thank you for that sweet poem and your help. I really appreciate it and i will talk to you if i need help..in fact i need help now..why are people so hypocritical??? cuz i have a friend who is..and why do people repeat everything said to them...and why do people give you the dirtiest looks but they claim they care and worry about you...and why are people scared to talk to me..i dont understand all of this..to tell you the truth i dont understand anything..not life..not people...not myself..so why not just die?? i dont get it!! help me! please!!!

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[i_angel_of_love]

First off, people will look at you and try to find things wrong with you. The want to make themselves feel better so they will judge you and try there hardest to mess with your life if theres isnt go the way they want it to. So people who are hypocritical really just want whats best for you and some just are stupid... lol... If your telling people things you dont want others to know tell them that and if they tell just tell them that they have broken your trust in them and you cant tell them nething eles. I have a friend that told me they cared for me but they really didnt. She gave me these looks and so i just backed off. Ill talk to her ocationaly but sometimes people want to keep a good front so that people will like them or think that they are nice... there are alot of mean people out there. If you confront the people doing things like that you could learn alot. There are many reason other than that that people could look at you like that. But if you ask them why they should give you a straight foward answer. If your not happy with yourself other people can feel it in you. And they people arent drawn usually to others when they walk around sad or depressed all the time. You will see if you walk around with a smile on and just be yourself more and more people will come to you. They will be drawn in and they will become probably your best firends. Cuase you make better friends when your being yourself then when you are acting like someone eles. You will also never truely understand anyone. Untill you have seen every side of them. Once you spend a great deal of time with someone eles you will notice things that they might be thinking by there body language or they facial expressions. Over half of whats comunicated between people is threw body language. Noone will ever understand life. One day you may find something you enjoy that makes you happy and then your life will seem great. And in order to find/understand yourself you need to just look inside of your slef. Write things that your thinking then read them. Write whats happening in your life then read it. You will see things arent as bad as you think they are. Nothing can be solved by dieing. I have been close to takeing my life a cupple of times... and my brother almost did take his life. But after you go threw something like that you can see that its not worth it. If you died all the people who have spited you or have done mean things to you win then. TO BE STRONG MEANS NEVER GIVEING UP. Dont give up on yourself hold on threw it all. If you can walk around with a smile on your face you have already won. Noone can stop you. You may cry but after awhile things will look up and you will beable to wear a real smile. I havent really had a real smile since this passed Sep. but before sunday i was able to start comeing back and smile. And soon i will beable to smile again a real smile. It takes time and all wounds heal in time but they leave scars that never go away. But you have to take them and realize what you have learned from everything. Just realize you are unique and special in your own way and when you realize how special you are so will everyone eles. I talk to you more about this later because if i dont stop now my parental is going to be pissed because there probably outside waiting for me.... lol.... so good luck and ill talk to you later. Just dont give up keep pushing foward and soon you will see the rewards you will get from it.
~Inocent Angel of Love