I BRUISE EASILY

[xxelectripinkxx]

i dont know how i feel - im just confused and kind of upset. i dont know if its hormones or whatever, but everything is so hard. i feel like im trying so hard to please everybody but im just a failiure. my efforts arent being noticed and i dont feel like bothering anymore. im not getting anywhere in life. im not going to be able to do anything i really want to do in life. i love fashion, its such a big part of who i am, but apparantly im not working as hard as everybody else when im at the same level as everybody else. im sory if i put too much thought into designing, and i dont just scrible everything down so its done - but idnt designing the main part of fashion? if im goiung to do some work i want to do it well. im not lowering my standand just to rush everything.
i dont even know why im moaning about this stuff, ive just had it bottled up for way too long. i really want somebody to listen to my problems and make it okay. but everybody is way to buzy with their own shit thats probably more importasnt than mine. all my friends are going through reall bad stuff that they control and heres me just moaning about things that just dont compare. i dont even know why im writing this but i want to get it al out. i can feel tears welling up in my eyes and im trembling and i dont know whats up with me. geez, just looking at my little brother is making me jealous, he's just laughing away at his games, no wories atall and then theres me just obsessing over all this stuff

i need to just scream!

v new pictures, but you probably dont care v