UGH
im sorry i havent updated for a while - ive been real busy helping my mum with lots of stuff, and i havent found the privacy to write up until now (my parents dont know i have this)soooo lets start from the beginning
THURSDAY:
it was parents evening, but i felt just like giving up, my grades have improved significantly, but its not good enough, and my parents gave me a roasting for it. afterwards we went late night shopping and i dont know why, but i was still kinda upset so when i was walking to new look (my mum was going to meet me there) i went past all the popular kids from my school, they all started laughing at me and i got really paranoid and i seriously felt like just running away - it probably sounds so stupid now, but im just really insecure
FRIDAY:
i got sooooo low that day, im gaining too much weight and im worrying about other stuff and it was getting too much for me. i ate loads of food and puked it up - i dont even know why i thought of doing that, but it made me feel a lot better, then i went to have a bath and in my room i did loads of stomach crunches, but theyre just not working - i need to be thin but if anything, im just gaining more and more weight. i couldn do much more, because laren came round for a sleepover
SATURDAY: it was kinda fun. me and lauren and my lil brother and his friend went bowling, but we only got one game (i came third :() there was this totally crazy family next to us that kept getting strikes and were like 'WHOO! STRIKE! IN YOUR FACE SUCKER!' to the whole bowlind alley, me and loz were laughing so hard
anyway im bored oof typing now so bye :p
THURSDAY:
it was parents evening, but i felt just like giving up, my grades have improved significantly, but its not good enough, and my parents gave me a roasting for it. afterwards we went late night shopping and i dont know why, but i was still kinda upset so when i was walking to new look (my mum was going to meet me there) i went past all the popular kids from my school, they all started laughing at me and i got really paranoid and i seriously felt like just running away - it probably sounds so stupid now, but im just really insecure
FRIDAY:
i got sooooo low that day, im gaining too much weight and im worrying about other stuff and it was getting too much for me. i ate loads of food and puked it up - i dont even know why i thought of doing that, but it made me feel a lot better, then i went to have a bath and in my room i did loads of stomach crunches, but theyre just not working - i need to be thin but if anything, im just gaining more and more weight. i couldn do much more, because laren came round for a sleepover
SATURDAY: it was kinda fun. me and lauren and my lil brother and his friend went bowling, but we only got one game (i came third :() there was this totally crazy family next to us that kept getting strikes and were like 'WHOO! STRIKE! IN YOUR FACE SUCKER!' to the whole bowlind alley, me and loz were laughing so hard
anyway im bored oof typing now so bye :p