...Major Sorrow...
Why does everything end in ruin...what have i done?? left alone...and realizing i have nothing but my studies...i have realized that im alone with nothing and that i have nothing here...why does my heavan turn to hell when i need it so...why does it seem everyone turns the other cheeck when i wear what i feel out in the open...i try not to hide it like before...but it seems like no one cares...left alone again...to ponder upon what weighs me down...
I wish i could just lift this all from my sholders for a while...just so i can have feeling...besides the pain i feel...i want to love and be loved...i want to feel the rain on my face, and the cold of the snow...why have these simple pleasures been taken from me...
I fear i will be alone the rest of my life...but only to here for someone when they need me...i fear i may make a mistake and cross the line just to find love...just to have the happiness everyone else seems to have...but why do the ones that find me...always back a way...leave with no notice...am i that horrible...when you get left so many times in the dark...left to ponder on all your faults...they become true...and your weaks moments become your life..
At this moment i feel like crawling in a hole...i know im the strong one...that is everyones sholder to lean on...but when i need one...no one is around...all i know is that i wont EVER make myself ready to be used by anyone else...EVER...