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i went to katies last night. hung out with her and amanda. phil couldnt make it.
woke up..talked to him. he was out with the family. he got a haircut and a black eye which is still a mystery to me so im going to believe he and mom had a cock fight. literally. haa anyways, we continued doing pretty much nothing but having fun nonetheless. then he came around 7. we hung out for a little bit. mom and kayvon got there. my mom caught me. i got in trouble sort of. so i just shit talked my way out of it.
i rule. i just need to kiss ass and be good for the next 48 hours give or take a few. itll be ok. wootwoot.
im kind of frustrated because it just doesnt feel like its christmas time. idk why. its like im just not excited or everything is just different somehow. maybe im just getting older or maybe its because my family at home is just so distant from eachother now. im not sure.
all i want is for everyone to be happy and i want to be relieved of all my stress about school and i really need to find a way to stop being so pessimistic about him. and try to remember that i need to just have fun and no matter what happens, im not going to regret any bit of it.
its xmas break...i need to just fckn shut up and relax. righto?