There was something in the way you turned and looked at me. I started panicking.

[xxdefectivexx]

Yay i got my nose ring id post a picture if i was that computer savvy but fuck that just im me and ill send you one.
went to the mall got clothes and cds. gwen stefani is pretty good.
i feel like ive been growing apart from certain friends. one called me her biff and now she seems to not even have time for me any more. the others just dont call or care. i dont know what to do about this. or how to feel. all i can feel is a withdrawal of nicotine. i thought i had more friends than this. more friends that cared.
id do anything for them and they can only put their away messages on when i say hello.
my thank yous melt to dust.
i look through my fone book and sigh.
i need to do hw. i need concrete plans for new years eve. i need something but i dont fucking know what. more of a personality or a sense of humor or money or....something to make people want to care. but they dont and my pale grey hands contract to my sides and theres nothing. because thats what i am.
no.thing.

this vacation is stupid. i cant wait to be 18 and get the fuck out.