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Lately I've been listening to a lot of rock inspired punk type of bands. Dropkick Murpheys, Blood for Blood, The Bruisers. I'm waiting for Friday when I get paid so I can pick up some Social D stuff and Stray Cat stuff.
I was talking to Will tonight and he said that TMD was playing a fest in Louisville. Imediatly a wave of nastalgia swept over me. I remember the huge fest Initial Records used to put on every year, all the long hours of reading through the Initial mail order catalog reading about all these bands and getting the sampler CDs and discovering litterally hundreds of bands that would completely change my life and make me who I am now.
I've talked a lot of shit about the "scene" over the years, I'm getting older and realize nothing I do or say is going to change anything and now more than ever I miss it. I used to be at numerous shows every month and now I can honestly say I've been to maybe 6 in the past year. I miss the ringing in my ears, I miss the dancing, I miss the sweat. I miss the emo/art bands that started to make it big in the late '90s. I miss going to Chapel Hill for shows with John and going to school kids and picking up a brand new CD from a band I had only heard rumors about and falling in love with them from listening to 'em on the drive home.
I hate that I've removed myself from all of that.
Sometimes the past hurts me. It seems like things have gotten so complicated in my life. I have bills, I have to work, I have a girlfriend that wants things to get very serious. I remember thinking when I was younger how complicated things were then and now look, I had no worries then but I thought the weight of the world was on my shoulders. When I think of those times my heart hurts, they were so amazing, and they're gone. I'm glad they happened, but it hurts to know that so many of those friends are still hanging out with each other, doing those same things and I'm not there.
I'm going to start attending more shows. I can't believe I took myself away from that. For 10 years shows have been my life and all of a sudden it's like "hey David stop going." Stupid me.
I was talking to Will tonight and he said that TMD was playing a fest in Louisville. Imediatly a wave of nastalgia swept over me. I remember the huge fest Initial Records used to put on every year, all the long hours of reading through the Initial mail order catalog reading about all these bands and getting the sampler CDs and discovering litterally hundreds of bands that would completely change my life and make me who I am now.
I've talked a lot of shit about the "scene" over the years, I'm getting older and realize nothing I do or say is going to change anything and now more than ever I miss it. I used to be at numerous shows every month and now I can honestly say I've been to maybe 6 in the past year. I miss the ringing in my ears, I miss the dancing, I miss the sweat. I miss the emo/art bands that started to make it big in the late '90s. I miss going to Chapel Hill for shows with John and going to school kids and picking up a brand new CD from a band I had only heard rumors about and falling in love with them from listening to 'em on the drive home.
I hate that I've removed myself from all of that.
Sometimes the past hurts me. It seems like things have gotten so complicated in my life. I have bills, I have to work, I have a girlfriend that wants things to get very serious. I remember thinking when I was younger how complicated things were then and now look, I had no worries then but I thought the weight of the world was on my shoulders. When I think of those times my heart hurts, they were so amazing, and they're gone. I'm glad they happened, but it hurts to know that so many of those friends are still hanging out with each other, doing those same things and I'm not there.
I'm going to start attending more shows. I can't believe I took myself away from that. For 10 years shows have been my life and all of a sudden it's like "hey David stop going." Stupid me.