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I sleep curled up like a little fetus...ha.
I want to curl up like that tonight for the last time. I want to reflect on my old life that has been reduced to a collage in a closet and I want to feel my knees on my chin. I want to stop breathing. I want everything to take me over all at once and for the first time rest in bliss knowing that I won't be held responsible anymore. I want to know that the world will forget about me in days and things will carry on as usual. And people will feel all the pain and beauty I felt over and over and over. And then some won't be able to take it and then they'll be forgotten about just like me. And they won't mind. The type of rest is just so inviting...just so...free.
I want to curl up like that tonight for the last time. I want to reflect on my old life that has been reduced to a collage in a closet and I want to feel my knees on my chin. I want to stop breathing. I want everything to take me over all at once and for the first time rest in bliss knowing that I won't be held responsible anymore. I want to know that the world will forget about me in days and things will carry on as usual. And people will feel all the pain and beauty I felt over and over and over. And then some won't be able to take it and then they'll be forgotten about just like me. And they won't mind. The type of rest is just so inviting...just so...free.