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I'm back in Kentucky.
I've spent the last few days with Bobby and Missy. It's strange but...I'm actually having fun here. The new apartment is beautiful AND huge. (enormous patio and bathrooms...oh oh! and closetss!!!) Well, compared to the old days at Jewell hall and press avenue. They seem to spend a lot of time at the pool sipping beers and being drunk by the afternoon. It's comical to watch and I have definatley become accustomed to this lifestyle and am nothing but excited that the three of us will live here together this year. As of right now the plan is to move to Costa Masa California when the lease is up. In the past when Bobby brought up California I always thought he was just dreaming out loud but now that he has a job to transfer to and I hate college life in Kentucky anyway it's actually starting to make sense. I really haven't been this excited in a long time...but a part of me is really nervous and upset. The more I think about it the more unreachable Dallas is becoming. What about my family and my best friends and the sense of freedom they've always given me? It's eveything I love and I just don't think I'm going to handle being pushed away from that all too well. Here, Bobby is my family and I have freinds but compared to home they're just not the same. And I know that when Bobby comforts me about this he's probably right how can I ever be happy if I don't see what else is out there. So many people only stick with what they know and then regret their decision when it's too late. So yeah...constant indeciseness...either way, I know I'll end up back with them someday it might just be delayed. I wonder what they would do in this situation. I think they would probably go see things for themselves first. I mean really, who wouldn't?
Further news in Kentucky:
It's my birthday!!!
He has a surprise for me...though he already informed me what it was so yay! Well, maybe it isn't a surprise but it was at one time...
I got skinny again from all the partying and fuss in Dallas so Bobby keeps making me eat all sorts of things and I feel sick.
Norbert died. We have yet to bury him. I miss him.
I'm about to unpack and make this place look gorgeous
I've spent the last few days with Bobby and Missy. It's strange but...I'm actually having fun here. The new apartment is beautiful AND huge. (enormous patio and bathrooms...oh oh! and closetss!!!) Well, compared to the old days at Jewell hall and press avenue. They seem to spend a lot of time at the pool sipping beers and being drunk by the afternoon. It's comical to watch and I have definatley become accustomed to this lifestyle and am nothing but excited that the three of us will live here together this year. As of right now the plan is to move to Costa Masa California when the lease is up. In the past when Bobby brought up California I always thought he was just dreaming out loud but now that he has a job to transfer to and I hate college life in Kentucky anyway it's actually starting to make sense. I really haven't been this excited in a long time...but a part of me is really nervous and upset. The more I think about it the more unreachable Dallas is becoming. What about my family and my best friends and the sense of freedom they've always given me? It's eveything I love and I just don't think I'm going to handle being pushed away from that all too well. Here, Bobby is my family and I have freinds but compared to home they're just not the same. And I know that when Bobby comforts me about this he's probably right how can I ever be happy if I don't see what else is out there. So many people only stick with what they know and then regret their decision when it's too late. So yeah...constant indeciseness...either way, I know I'll end up back with them someday it might just be delayed. I wonder what they would do in this situation. I think they would probably go see things for themselves first. I mean really, who wouldn't?
Further news in Kentucky:
It's my birthday!!!
He has a surprise for me...though he already informed me what it was so yay! Well, maybe it isn't a surprise but it was at one time...
I got skinny again from all the partying and fuss in Dallas so Bobby keeps making me eat all sorts of things and I feel sick.
Norbert died. We have yet to bury him. I miss him.
I'm about to unpack and make this place look gorgeous