Children get older
As emo or whatever as it sounds i've been really depressed lately.
Me and shawn had an awesome time at warped tour, it was so great getting to spend that much time together cause were lucky if we even get one day a week. Well when we come back our scheduals are COMPLETLY opposite. All week (mon-fri) he's worked 7am-3pm and i've worked 3pm-11pm. It's seriously the hardest thing i've ever done. When he leaves for work i'm still asleep, and when i get home from work he's asleep, there is like a passing 'love you' as i get to work and he leaves but thats it. And then last night he stayed up and waited for me casue he said there was something he needed to tell me, well surprise it's more bad news. Not only will our scheduals be like that for the next three weeks, but they are sending him to boston next month. And to fucking top it all off he's going to be gone for his birthday.
I dont know. i've gotten no sleep at all recently cause i cant sleep without him in the bed, and ive cried almost every day... i really dont know what i'm going to do. And now i cant quit thinking about the fact that in less then a month he'll be gone for so long, and i wont see him at all, andi'll miss his birthday. Maybe i'm just being a baby but i'm so in love with him it hurts.
We got two kittens the other day and after he left this morning i went into the office where they were and layed on the floor and held them and cried. And i think one of the things that bothers me the most is that neither of us got any say on it. Our GM called him into the office yesterday and told him he was going...
I think i cna honestly say i know what the term love sick means.
Me and shawn had an awesome time at warped tour, it was so great getting to spend that much time together cause were lucky if we even get one day a week. Well when we come back our scheduals are COMPLETLY opposite. All week (mon-fri) he's worked 7am-3pm and i've worked 3pm-11pm. It's seriously the hardest thing i've ever done. When he leaves for work i'm still asleep, and when i get home from work he's asleep, there is like a passing 'love you' as i get to work and he leaves but thats it. And then last night he stayed up and waited for me casue he said there was something he needed to tell me, well surprise it's more bad news. Not only will our scheduals be like that for the next three weeks, but they are sending him to boston next month. And to fucking top it all off he's going to be gone for his birthday.
I dont know. i've gotten no sleep at all recently cause i cant sleep without him in the bed, and ive cried almost every day... i really dont know what i'm going to do. And now i cant quit thinking about the fact that in less then a month he'll be gone for so long, and i wont see him at all, andi'll miss his birthday. Maybe i'm just being a baby but i'm so in love with him it hurts.
We got two kittens the other day and after he left this morning i went into the office where they were and layed on the floor and held them and cried. And i think one of the things that bothers me the most is that neither of us got any say on it. Our GM called him into the office yesterday and told him he was going...
I think i cna honestly say i know what the term love sick means.