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feel like i've been eating 'normal'. thinking on the bright side, i haven't binged in what feels like a long time. on the bad side i'm not restricting meaning i'm not losing anything. i had gone about 2 weeks not binging also but a few nights ago and tonight i purged dinner.
it's weird because i know i've been struggling with b/p for the past 4 or so months, but i don't consider myself a purger. i don't know if i'm in denial? i started questioning this tonight when i purged my dinner in about a minute, completely quietly. i was scared because i felt like i was really good at it but then why do i also feel like such an amateur and that i don't really know what i'm doing? i don't want to be a purger, but is that what i've become? i'm really confused.
it's weird because i know i've been struggling with b/p for the past 4 or so months, but i don't consider myself a purger. i don't know if i'm in denial? i started questioning this tonight when i purged my dinner in about a minute, completely quietly. i was scared because i felt like i was really good at it but then why do i also feel like such an amateur and that i don't really know what i'm doing? i don't want to be a purger, but is that what i've become? i'm really confused.