death to mr. right
well now, howdy once again. how incredibly sporadic and unreliable I am. I'm not sure if this is a recent addition to my horde of personal characteristics or not. I'm also unsure whether or not I like them. Oh well. One has to like them at least a little bit, right? After all, they are me and I'm them and it's tough enough to swim through life disliking so much without adding myself to that infinite list, what?
Am I a good person? Impossible to answer isn't it? For example, let's examine my role as a partner to Carrie. Do I love her? Good grief YES!!! Do I want to do everything in my power to make her happy? Friggin' right champ. Have I ever done anything classically bad in a relationship such as cheated? Absolutely not, and as a matter of fact such a vile act has never crossed my mind. HOWEVER....there's always a "however"...however, these few things I've mentioned don't instantly secure me as a great boyfriend. Not at all. Does the desire to be an amazing lover, or the want to be a good person make one so?
Unfortunately so. Some people, bliss-ridden and enviable they be, would say that the very act of me debating all of this and wanting to be a good person makes visible that I am. I wish they were right, I really do because trying is hard:)
It's not like I've done anything wrong, or anything even much differently lately that's making me consider these matters...I suppose certain things have brought it up. I'm so glad they did. How many people go through life thinking they're great people, or that they're great husbands/wives/boyfriends/girlfriends, when in reality they're quite shitty? My guess is a lot.
+LIFE GOINGS ON YAY!+
Last night was the fullblast, alexisonfire, and Rise against show in halifax. It was great and both Care and I had a pretty decent time. There was lots of familiar faces present there and it was nice. My only problem with the whole thing was just a little personal tick of mine and that was the fact that there was so many bloody people there....so very many. It's obviously a good thing, I mean such a good turnout bodes well for future shows in this province which lacks so very much in the way of good musical entertainment. I just get claustrophobic:)
Moving on, Carrie and myself are okay. Lot's of stuff going on and whatnot, but that's for us two to know, and maybe even for us two to find out sometime;) The love, as always, remains stronger than ever, even in trying times.
Once again, my brother's vast collection of internet pornography is causing me problems. The comp is even more infested with Spyware then ever, which is annoying and distracting, making me want to stop typing...........now
Am I a good person? Impossible to answer isn't it? For example, let's examine my role as a partner to Carrie. Do I love her? Good grief YES!!! Do I want to do everything in my power to make her happy? Friggin' right champ. Have I ever done anything classically bad in a relationship such as cheated? Absolutely not, and as a matter of fact such a vile act has never crossed my mind. HOWEVER....there's always a "however"...however, these few things I've mentioned don't instantly secure me as a great boyfriend. Not at all. Does the desire to be an amazing lover, or the want to be a good person make one so?
Unfortunately so. Some people, bliss-ridden and enviable they be, would say that the very act of me debating all of this and wanting to be a good person makes visible that I am. I wish they were right, I really do because trying is hard:)
It's not like I've done anything wrong, or anything even much differently lately that's making me consider these matters...I suppose certain things have brought it up. I'm so glad they did. How many people go through life thinking they're great people, or that they're great husbands/wives/boyfriends/girlfriends, when in reality they're quite shitty? My guess is a lot.
+LIFE GOINGS ON YAY!+
Last night was the fullblast, alexisonfire, and Rise against show in halifax. It was great and both Care and I had a pretty decent time. There was lots of familiar faces present there and it was nice. My only problem with the whole thing was just a little personal tick of mine and that was the fact that there was so many bloody people there....so very many. It's obviously a good thing, I mean such a good turnout bodes well for future shows in this province which lacks so very much in the way of good musical entertainment. I just get claustrophobic:)
Moving on, Carrie and myself are okay. Lot's of stuff going on and whatnot, but that's for us two to know, and maybe even for us two to find out sometime;) The love, as always, remains stronger than ever, even in trying times.
Once again, my brother's vast collection of internet pornography is causing me problems. The comp is even more infested with Spyware then ever, which is annoying and distracting, making me want to stop typing...........now