So... i guess i am a horrible person???

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well... I was told yesterday by one of my best friends(ex) that i am a horrible person. i guess if you consider someone who has been trying to help you get caught up because you have been slacking off because you were sick for like amonth and a half (supposedly) and you have just decided to pretty much not show up to class because you knew i was gonna be there and would have everything done and i keep trying to help n you decide to tell ppl that we are not talking because you are sick of me bossing you around and acting like your mother well i guess if you dont want a friend that is trying to help you n get you up to speed in class because she is worried about you .. n then you talk shit n naturally if you dont want me bossing you around then you dont need me helping you either n i need my lab manual to get caught up myself n hmmm... its mine i bought it i am not gonna give it to you when i need it and you are acting like a selfish bitch so i tell you to buy your own n because we have a month left you decide i am a horrible person cuz i tell you to buy your own so if you consider someone who tells you to buy something of your own cuz i need mine i guess thats me a horrible person at least i am not a horrible person that is failing the funny thing is that last semester we both had chem 2 different classes but they used the same book... she said she did not want to share cuz we might both need it at the same time and she liked to study whenever she got the chance (yeah right) well i bought my own i didnt think she was a horrible person she had a valid arguement as i do know my grade is riding on my lab maual too and i am the one that spent 50 dollars on it so tough luck sweetie i am done worrying about your grade 4 you cuz u wont worry about it yourself i am worried about mine you can fail i dont give a flying fuck you failed this class once before at henry ford because you would rather spend your time with your bf then study now you have a new one and it seems you are using the "being sick" factor to do it again but have me do the work for you ummm... no i will not let you copy the month and a half and 30 pages of my hand written work that i have done by myself because my lab partner was mia fuck that i dont need a friend that will use and abuse and then just completely not appreciate me i was gonna let you copy but with the way you are acting you dont deserve my help or my friendship you need a clue

hmmm... so.... work i am full time now so i will be 40 hrs from here on out n fulltime school yippee sorry folks that means i am going to be mia for a long time longer than i already have been but hey you gotta do what you gotta do to have what you want right.. i just wish that you all bear with me til i can really hangout again this summer i should be able to unless i get a second job i may do that because i want to buy a new car so that could happen... guys are funny some stalk you cuz you hung out like 4-5 times n some fall in love with you when they want something n some always have gf but wanna hang out with you anyways n some just stop talking to you for one reason or anothe n some make plans with ya and just break them for no apparent reason oh well i hope they just remember i dont forget so whatever

people have been really pissing me off lately if you cant tell sorry about the incoherent rant i was pretty pissed i hope the people who read this can understand it and understand where i am coming from
through everything the one part that really helps me out a lot is that i know i have one person that will always be there for me and is not just there because they are related to me thats shannon I love you girl and i am glad i met and befriended you you are one person i know i will never have to cut loose and that makes me very happy!!! oddly enough i thank the home depot for my wonderful friend but curse it for all then bad people that came with it....

i need to get back to homework now so
sincerely working my butt off
jessica <3