I just want you back.
I've lost him again...now to some other girl...I knew this would happen. I even told him, what's the use in dating when you know you'd be happier to leave me and fuck around with a bunch of girls all at once...kind of like before we were dating. I just want these nine days to be over. I know he won't call me when he gets back like he promised. I suppose I don't really blame him...I just wanted a little more time with him, I didn't mean to break things off with him...working so much he's the only thing that can pull me back into reality after a hard week straight of work...I just wanted more time with him and ended up getting the complete opposite because I went about it in an immature fashion.. I can't spell right now and I'm not sure I give a shit..haha. I don't know what to do with all the stuff I bought him for his birthday since apparently he's already found a replacement for me...I don't know if I should return it all and get gas money or hold onto it forever and hope that he'll atleast look at me on September 4th... I just want him back I know I completely handled it the wrong way and I want this OVER with...
I love him sooo much...and I'm not even allowed to say that to his face...Not even when we were dating...He would've just been like "That's great" But I really do and I jsut want him and everybody else to know that because apparently everyone else doesn't want us to be together. Kind of like how it always goes. Everyone's always trying to get us back together and then hook him up with other girls..I jsut don't understand why the world seems to be out to get me when all I really want is a couple of days a week with Kymm...
I didn't think it was much to ask for but I guess I was wrong..