Nihilism

[xx_thesbo_xx]

Recently it was disclosed to me- not by the most intuitive source but at least one that knows me well- that I am too "smart" to be "happy." Honestly as far as my inner monologue is concerned my initial response went something like: actually, you are just too stupid to know what happiness means. However I have been thinking recurrently about the

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[deadclaymore]

It's spelled Pensieve, dumbass.
Can you feel the love lol?
Believe or no, but I had precisely the same thought a while back while standing in the grave of a 17 year old girl who had committed suicide.
The issue I was trying to think through was whether she was a coward for not having had the balls to face whatever it was she had been running from, (Assuming she was indeed running, I've done some research on her and haven't been able to discover any information that would provide a satisfactory "why")or if she was both brilliant and courageous for having the balls to take in her own hands her life, in the fullest way that it's possible for a human to do so. (Control over one's continued existence really is one of the only things we have control of, it being limited only by our fear of dying and survival instinct, and those can be worked around)
I ended up coming to the conclusion that I would store the matter in my head for further mulling, and boy would it be nice to have a Pensieve so I could look at this objectively and see the obvious answers, instead of being bogged down by feelings and opinions and emotions, which in the thick of a thought, can sometimes be difficult to discern from fact.
The purpose of life is to live. I think you know this already, but maybe hearing another person say it will do you some good. Live your life, but when it really comes down to it, and you know nothing really matters anyway, is there any other reason but "just for the hell of it"?

Do you even care if people read this? I mean, why do you do it? Why did you start this? I'm sure your reasons for starting it are different from your reasons for your continuing it. Do you do it because you know you have an audience? I'm not trying to be mean, I'm just curious.
Be honest.

[deadclaymore]

Oh there was much more to that suicide thought that just the two sides I put here, the possibilities were endless, so I only put the two I thought the most about, in terms of time.
That and dichotimizing an argument is easier than typing.

[xx_thesbo_xx]

I'm not really thinking about people when I do it but at the same time I don't think things are worth writing if the writer is the only one who ever reads them.

And I think these are things that people should think about. And I think that people should help me figure out what to do.

[deadclaymore]

Welp, I think about the same sort of stuff *lends hand*