weird

[xx_taytay_xx]

last night i came home and saw my moms journal that she kept when she first got sick , sitting on the table...so i picked it up and read it .. i didnt relize how much pain she was in , and how much she really needed me to be there , but i did my own thing to keep my mind off of everything...i guess i was just being selffish...and even tho she hated the fact that stefan didnt have a job , he still did nothing about it .. so i went to bed with alot on my mind and had some very wierd dreams...and i woke up this morning to the sound of my mom making breakfest and talking to kyle..it was just too weird , i hate that becuase it makes me feel like everything is ok in my life and its all back to normal , but then i walk out of my room to an empty house.

i guess cuz summers almost over..real life is starting to settle in..its my senior year and i have sooo much to do..but i really wanna live it up!

i just cant wait to go back to new york..i hate it here

well no work tonight , i dont noe what im gonna do...oh well..ttyl

xox*tara