I am not my skin..
Sigh.... I feel like I'm only here when things are bad, anymore.
Things are better, though. Up and down. Fighting and peace. I think a lot of our stress is this place - Xan treats me like less than garbage.. And we are moving soon - thank the gods because I'm not sure how much longer I could stand this place. I have never loathed anyone As much as I loath her. Especially for what she tried to do with Andrew. Even if I ever forgive her I could never forget - that aside she hides our shit, throws our stuff away.. Riffles through our belongings. I plan to have 0 contact with her after we leave and she is certainly not allowed near our new place.
I know that Andrew is trying - and I think that us as a whole will be much better once we move. I'm already not stressing just thinking about it.
But.. Other than that, things have been.. Manageable. He's trying and so am I.
I suppose in the end that's all we can do - but.. I'm sure that things will work out. They always do. So for now I will content myself with the little moments as I can. Take joy in waking up beside the man I love and thinking about our future together. :)
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