A pinch of jealousy
Title: A pinch of jealousy
Genre: fail!angst, fail!jealousy
Summary: Jungsoo had fallen hard.
Auother's note; So this basically came to me as I was going to sleep and well... It sounded better in my head and well, I have seen a lot of Kangin!jealously FICs and so I decided that I wanted to write the opposite and make Leeteuk the jealous one. I obviously failed and well, I hope you like it... /bricked .)
Jungsoo knew it was bad. He knew he was becoming the exact opposite of what he wanted but he couldn't help it. Love really did make people do stupid things or was it jealousy? Probably the later but then again he couldn't really be that sure. Heck, he didn't even know what he was doing until he was too far gone; past the point of no return. There was no turning back. Not now.
Part of him felt guilty. He wasn't sure what part but then again, he didn't want to dwell on that too much. Hehad always told him that his over thinking was the cause of negativity and of course, he never listened... Well at least until now but he would never know that.
Part of him regretted doing this. Probably the same part that was drowning in guilt. He wasn't sure because he had realized there were too many parts to him, that he didn't even know what part was actually him. But he did and that's why, he thought, he had fallen for him so hard. So hard that he was willing to go so far.
The fans had gone crazy when Jungsoo announced that he had been cast on the ever popular variety show, We Got Married. They had said he was crazy - insane even - for taking so much onto his plate but it was his chance and he would do anything to be casted. He didn't care that he dying under all the stress; all the hard work, because he knew in the end it would pay off... Or at least he hoped. No. It had to.
But then everything went wrong. Kang Sora was a nice person and had an equally nice personality and Jungsoo felt horrible for using her like this. For giving her this false hope. Yes, he knew that it was acting but he could tell by her actions that she thought his actions were sincere and that pained him. Whether it was because he had gotten so good at hiding under a mask or the fact that he was leading Sora on, he would never know. Or maybe it was because he didn't want to know. He had always been a coward after all, despite him saying otherwise.
It was all for him, he told himself even though deep down inside he knew it for himself - because of his jealously.
It had begun when Youngwoon was casted for 'We got Married' a couple of years ago. The other male had been so excited and it annoyed him; irritated him to no end but of course he was smiling on the outside, supporting Youngwoon like the good leader he was suppose to be. That's probably when he started wearing his mask; when he started hiding his feelings away. It was then when reality harshly hit him.
He had fallen hard for Youngwoon. His caring nature towards the younger male was more the friendship; it was love. He was in love with his friend, his band member and it made his blood boil to see Youngwoon with her. Laughing and playing with her. It should have been him! Only he was suppose to be the one that caused Youngwoon to laugh uncontrollable. Only he was suppose to be the shoulder that Youngwoon could lean on and share his problems with him. It was suppose to be him! Not her! But Jungsoo didn't say that. He kept on smiling, cheering Youngwoon on and supporting him even though he was burning and breaking with jealously.
Jungsoo was pretty sure his love for the younger man was unhealthy. Heck, of course it was! He was suppose to fall in love with a beautiful woman, not some big bulky man but at the same time Jungsoo knew he didn't care. He was far too gone. He had fallen too deep and now he was being completely swallowed by it.
It had started as a small simple plan - to make Youngwoon feel the jealousy and pain that he had suffered through a few years about - but then again, plan never went according to well, plans. The reason behind it was her, Kang Sora. Jungsoo had never expected her to actually fall for him... For his act. In some ways it disgusted him. That he was willing to go so far just for revenge... Revenge that he wasn't even sure he was going to receive.
Jungsoo laughed at the thought, wondering why he hadn't thought of that before. He been so caught up on revenge that he didn't even stop to think if Youngwoon was even watching the show. Jungsoo groaned, suddenly feeling foolish and guiltily. Yet again he had rushed into something without thinking of the consequences. Not only was he making a fool out of himself he was also breaking an innocent woman's heart.
Genre: fail!angst, fail!jealousy
Summary: Jungsoo had fallen hard.
Auother's note; So this basically came to me as I was going to sleep and well... It sounded better in my head and well, I have seen a lot of Kangin!jealously FICs and so I decided that I wanted to write the opposite and make Leeteuk the jealous one. I obviously failed and well, I hope you like it... /bricked .)
Jungsoo knew it was bad. He knew he was becoming the exact opposite of what he wanted but he couldn't help it. Love really did make people do stupid things or was it jealousy? Probably the later but then again he couldn't really be that sure. Heck, he didn't even know what he was doing until he was too far gone; past the point of no return. There was no turning back. Not now.
Part of him felt guilty. He wasn't sure what part but then again, he didn't want to dwell on that too much. Hehad always told him that his over thinking was the cause of negativity and of course, he never listened... Well at least until now but he would never know that.
Part of him regretted doing this. Probably the same part that was drowning in guilt. He wasn't sure because he had realized there were too many parts to him, that he didn't even know what part was actually him. But he did and that's why, he thought, he had fallen for him so hard. So hard that he was willing to go so far.
The fans had gone crazy when Jungsoo announced that he had been cast on the ever popular variety show, We Got Married. They had said he was crazy - insane even - for taking so much onto his plate but it was his chance and he would do anything to be casted. He didn't care that he dying under all the stress; all the hard work, because he knew in the end it would pay off... Or at least he hoped. No. It had to.
But then everything went wrong. Kang Sora was a nice person and had an equally nice personality and Jungsoo felt horrible for using her like this. For giving her this false hope. Yes, he knew that it was acting but he could tell by her actions that she thought his actions were sincere and that pained him. Whether it was because he had gotten so good at hiding under a mask or the fact that he was leading Sora on, he would never know. Or maybe it was because he didn't want to know. He had always been a coward after all, despite him saying otherwise.
It was all for him, he told himself even though deep down inside he knew it for himself - because of his jealously.
It had begun when Youngwoon was casted for 'We got Married' a couple of years ago. The other male had been so excited and it annoyed him; irritated him to no end but of course he was smiling on the outside, supporting Youngwoon like the good leader he was suppose to be. That's probably when he started wearing his mask; when he started hiding his feelings away. It was then when reality harshly hit him.
He had fallen hard for Youngwoon. His caring nature towards the younger male was more the friendship; it was love. He was in love with his friend, his band member and it made his blood boil to see Youngwoon with her. Laughing and playing with her. It should have been him! Only he was suppose to be the one that caused Youngwoon to laugh uncontrollable. Only he was suppose to be the shoulder that Youngwoon could lean on and share his problems with him. It was suppose to be him! Not her! But Jungsoo didn't say that. He kept on smiling, cheering Youngwoon on and supporting him even though he was burning and breaking with jealously.
Jungsoo was pretty sure his love for the younger man was unhealthy. Heck, of course it was! He was suppose to fall in love with a beautiful woman, not some big bulky man but at the same time Jungsoo knew he didn't care. He was far too gone. He had fallen too deep and now he was being completely swallowed by it.
It had started as a small simple plan - to make Youngwoon feel the jealousy and pain that he had suffered through a few years about - but then again, plan never went according to well, plans. The reason behind it was her, Kang Sora. Jungsoo had never expected her to actually fall for him... For his act. In some ways it disgusted him. That he was willing to go so far just for revenge... Revenge that he wasn't even sure he was going to receive.
Jungsoo laughed at the thought, wondering why he hadn't thought of that before. He been so caught up on revenge that he didn't even stop to think if Youngwoon was even watching the show. Jungsoo groaned, suddenly feeling foolish and guiltily. Yet again he had rushed into something without thinking of the consequences. Not only was he making a fool out of himself he was also breaking an innocent woman's heart.