The step I've taken
Long time no type. Not like anyone reads this anyway. So anyways...the step. Today, I called a therapist. To set up an appointment. I need to see someone. My anxiety has been ridiculous. And I have no idea why. But anyways...he didn't answer, of course...they never do. His voicemail prompted me to leave my name, number and insurance provider. So I did that. Now I'm just waiting for a call back. Who knows when that'll be. Hopefully before Wednesday...cause I have to work on Wednesday night. Working third shift is freakin' awesome...no matter how tired I get. I don't have to deal with nearly as much shit as I did when I worked second shift.
Let's see..what else is new. Shawn bought be a dozen pink roses a few weeks ago. Then a dozen purple roses a week or so after that. I bought myself a PSP that I love. I bought a Motorola SLVR from a shift manager at my job, for 25 bucks. It's awesome. I got rid of shitty dial-up internet service and switched to cable internet. So now I have cable internet and basic cable tv. Sweet. Even though I don't really watch TV unless I'm at work. Hmm...there's more..I know there is. Oh yeah, the dog, Sasha, was put to sleep. She had lyme disease..which seemed to clear up after going to the vet. And she was fine for a few weeks then her health just started goin' down hill again. She did have lymphoma. And she started going blind. Bumping into walls, tripping over things. It was real sad. But...like I said, she's gone. And everyone's over it.
My mom and dad moved into a different apartment. So I had to get the rest of my stuff outta there cause their new place is smaller. So all of my stuff is here...most of it still packed and in the basement. Which Chad flooded the other day because he had a ham in the sink, defrosting, with the water running over it...and fell asleep and the sink overflowed. What a fucking genius, huh? I can't stand him. And I can't wait to get outta this damn place. Me and Shawn will be moving out this summer. I think July is when the lease is up. We'll probably, hopefully, more than likely be moving into my older sister's apartment. I'm just hoping she'll be out in time. :crosses fingers:
So since we have cable, I bought a wireless router so I can sit online, on my laptop, in my room. It kicks ass. I love it. This is what I'm doing now. And Shawn's downstairs on the computer playing Diablo. Whackness.
My eczema is out of fucking control. It's driving me crazy. And I've gotten more white patches...my vitiligo is spreading. Wonderful. Not. Oh, speaking of that, since it's near my wrist, I got another tattoo. On my right wrist. It's Kanji. Life. So now I have a tat on each wrist. I need to get my back finished. Maybe next tax season.
Okay, I think I'm done blabbing. I feel a little tired. I worked last night. Got out at 9:30 this mornin'. Maybe I'll take a nap. I'd hate to miss that phone call from that therapist though. Oh well, he can leave a voicemail the same way I left him one. Maybe I'll continue my search for a specific kinda cat. Shawn says we can get a kitten when we move out, along with bring October with us. October is living with my parent's still. The only kind of cat Shawn wants is a Russian Blue. He's picky. I just want to get a Bengal kitten. We'll see how the search goes. Because so far, the only place I'm finding Russian Blue kittens is in New York and I'm NOT driving my car to New York just for a cat. Unless it was a Serval of course. But if we can't find any Russian Blues in the area, I'm just gonna get my bengal kitten. And it'll be just as beautiful and lovey as a russian blue.
Well, yeah, I'm really gettin' outta here now. Search time. See ya.