When something can go wrong, it will. Werd.
Shawn left about 45 minutes ago. He was mad at me. Because I rolled my eyes. I rolled my eyes because he went and shot pool with his brother, his bro's gf, steven and his gf. At Mad Maggies. They got to MM at around 8 or so. Now, Shawn knew I was at my parent's store and we leave the store at 8. Why he didn't call me from Chad's cell phone and ask me if I wanted to meet them at MM is beyond me. THAT'S the reason I rolled my eyes. Because I thought it was kinda fucked up. I mean, I live right down the street from MM. I easily could've walked over there and shot pool with them. And so what if I was hanging out with Starr, she wouldn't have minded playin' pool for an hour! And I would've paid her way, ya know? So yeah, that's why I was mad. But he got mad, JUST BECAUSE I rolled my eyes. And he said that they stopped playin' pool around 9:30 or whatever...so why did you take a half hour to get to my house? But that doesn't even matter. When he left my house to go to work, after I rolled my eyes, he wouldn't even give me a kiss. When I finally did get one, after chasing him down the damn hallway, it was a cheap ass kiss and tasted like beer. Very unappealing. But at least I got a kiss at all.
I shouldn't even have to SEE IT that way! I make myself so mad. I give people advice about relationships but I never listen to myself. I feel like another stupid girl. Minus the slut part. LOL At least I have one thing to be proud of...not being a slut. Fucking whores. :snickers:
I wish I could really be the way I portray myself. I mean, yeah, I am a bitch and can be mean and stuff...but I'm not strong. I mean, in some aspects, I am. I just want to fight. I need a punching bag.
How can things be so good one day and be shitty the next? Even within a few hours. It's amazing.
And it's usually my fault. You fucking SUCK, natalie.
Why can't everything just be NORMAL?
Sometimes, I wish I was still 14, so I could just run away. But I've already learned my lesson in that department. Running away doesn't solve anything.
I shouldn't even have to SEE IT that way! I make myself so mad. I give people advice about relationships but I never listen to myself. I feel like another stupid girl. Minus the slut part. LOL At least I have one thing to be proud of...not being a slut. Fucking whores. :snickers:
I wish I could really be the way I portray myself. I mean, yeah, I am a bitch and can be mean and stuff...but I'm not strong. I mean, in some aspects, I am. I just want to fight. I need a punching bag.
How can things be so good one day and be shitty the next? Even within a few hours. It's amazing.
And it's usually my fault. You fucking SUCK, natalie.
Why can't everything just be NORMAL?
Sometimes, I wish I was still 14, so I could just run away. But I've already learned my lesson in that department. Running away doesn't solve anything.