Sex Love Bone
I really wish that my chest would stop hurting. It has been almost one month since my surgery and I still have pain. I know its the normal healing process but it is getting very aggravating not being able to do normal active things. Lifting,running,riding, I can not do anything. I have this constant dull ache and I ran out of pain killers long ago. Which let me tell you was for the best considering that problem that I have with over medicating myself on purpose. Most of my steri-strips have came off on my left pec, my right side is still mostly covered. I don't have the energy to pick at them any more.
I just want to feel better.
I did nothing of worth today at all. I had some chineese food for lunch and watched Notre Dame kick the shit out of Army it was fantastic. They are 10-1 now and if they can just beat USC next saturday they have a chance for the title against Ohio. I love college football so much. I have tomorrow off from work as well and I will be spending the day cleaning my house. It is in desperate need of a deep deep cleaning. Laundry,Closets, Toilets the fridge, the works.
Thanksgiving is next week and I am going to Chas parents house. Her family is so nice it is just crazy. Its just so unreal that I am her boyfriend. I am so happy with the way things are going in that aspect. My body finally looks almost right to me minus the aches and pains. I just hope everything runs smoothly for us. As soon as thanksgiving is over I am going to attempt to light my fire place. Since I have one I just have yet to use it.
I was sitting here thinking tonight how great everything is in my life. I have no major things going on anymore. Just normal life happenings. I find myself in love again. I never thought I would let myself get to that point again ever. I am so glad I have this chance to give someone my love again. To be a good person and a honest person. To start over without the lies and the secrets. There is something so honest and right about her love and I can't even put my finger on it. I feel whole for once truly whole. I can honestly say I thought what I had before was love...real love. And it was love but I can honestly say it was fucked up and not healthy from the begining for either of us. I am glad it happened though because I learned so much about life and myself. What I am willing to tolerate and comprimise in a realtionship and what I am not willing to do. I am in love with someone as a person and not some infatuation of the future. I took it slow and steady and was honest and open and nothing but good has come out of it. If you wait and believe good things will come to you. I believe it now. You can't expect someone else to make you complete to fill your holes...You have to know who you are before you can be with someone else and then when your ready. Bam there it is... I can honestly say if Chas and I don't work for what ever reason. It will be a normal parting of the ways no hatred and hangin on...no finger pointing...just normal... And god that is all I have wanted...normal...and for right now at this very moment everything is right...Who knows what is next...
To Chasity:
Say that you stay a little
Don't say bye bye tonight
Say you'll be mine
just a little of bit of love Is worth a moment of your time
knocking on your door just a little
so cold outside tonight
let's get the fire burning
I know, I'll keep it burning bright
If you stay, won't you stay - stay
save room for my love
save room for a moment to be with me
save room for my love- save a little
save a little for me
won't you save a little
save a little for me - ohh
This just might hurt a little
love hurts sometimes when you do it right
Don't be affraid of a little bit of pain
pleasure is just on the other side
Let down your guard just a little
I'll keep you safe in these arms of mine
Hold on to me - pretty baby
You will see I can be all you need
If you stay, won't you stay - stay
save room for my love
save room for a moment to be with me
save room for my love save a little
save a little for me
won't you save a little
save a little for me - ohh
Ohhh come on
Make time to live a little
don't let this moment slip by tonight
you never know what you are missing untill you try
I'll keep you satisfied
if you stay, won't you stay - stay
save room for my love
save room for a moment to be with me
save room for my love save a little
save a little for me
won't you save a little
save a little for me - ohh
save room for love
save room for a moment to be with me
save a little, save a little for me
won't you save a little
save a little for me
I just want to feel better.
I did nothing of worth today at all. I had some chineese food for lunch and watched Notre Dame kick the shit out of Army it was fantastic. They are 10-1 now and if they can just beat USC next saturday they have a chance for the title against Ohio. I love college football so much. I have tomorrow off from work as well and I will be spending the day cleaning my house. It is in desperate need of a deep deep cleaning. Laundry,Closets, Toilets the fridge, the works.
Thanksgiving is next week and I am going to Chas parents house. Her family is so nice it is just crazy. Its just so unreal that I am her boyfriend. I am so happy with the way things are going in that aspect. My body finally looks almost right to me minus the aches and pains. I just hope everything runs smoothly for us. As soon as thanksgiving is over I am going to attempt to light my fire place. Since I have one I just have yet to use it.
I was sitting here thinking tonight how great everything is in my life. I have no major things going on anymore. Just normal life happenings. I find myself in love again. I never thought I would let myself get to that point again ever. I am so glad I have this chance to give someone my love again. To be a good person and a honest person. To start over without the lies and the secrets. There is something so honest and right about her love and I can't even put my finger on it. I feel whole for once truly whole. I can honestly say I thought what I had before was love...real love. And it was love but I can honestly say it was fucked up and not healthy from the begining for either of us. I am glad it happened though because I learned so much about life and myself. What I am willing to tolerate and comprimise in a realtionship and what I am not willing to do. I am in love with someone as a person and not some infatuation of the future. I took it slow and steady and was honest and open and nothing but good has come out of it. If you wait and believe good things will come to you. I believe it now. You can't expect someone else to make you complete to fill your holes...You have to know who you are before you can be with someone else and then when your ready. Bam there it is... I can honestly say if Chas and I don't work for what ever reason. It will be a normal parting of the ways no hatred and hangin on...no finger pointing...just normal... And god that is all I have wanted...normal...and for right now at this very moment everything is right...Who knows what is next...
To Chasity:
Say that you stay a little
Don't say bye bye tonight
Say you'll be mine
just a little of bit of love Is worth a moment of your time
knocking on your door just a little
so cold outside tonight
let's get the fire burning
I know, I'll keep it burning bright
If you stay, won't you stay - stay
save room for my love
save room for a moment to be with me
save room for my love- save a little
save a little for me
won't you save a little
save a little for me - ohh
This just might hurt a little
love hurts sometimes when you do it right
Don't be affraid of a little bit of pain
pleasure is just on the other side
Let down your guard just a little
I'll keep you safe in these arms of mine
Hold on to me - pretty baby
You will see I can be all you need
If you stay, won't you stay - stay
save room for my love
save room for a moment to be with me
save room for my love save a little
save a little for me
won't you save a little
save a little for me - ohh
Ohhh come on
Make time to live a little
don't let this moment slip by tonight
you never know what you are missing untill you try
I'll keep you satisfied
if you stay, won't you stay - stay
save room for my love
save room for a moment to be with me
save room for my love save a little
save a little for me
won't you save a little
save a little for me - ohh
save room for love
save room for a moment to be with me
save a little, save a little for me
won't you save a little
save a little for me