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[xx_devi_xx]

Ugh, I hate living here, I wish I could just live out on my own, I know that won't be any easier then living with dear Mater, but at least I would have the freedoms that I choose to exercise, like being able to hang out with whomever I want to hang out with, and do whatever the fuck I want, dear Mater tells me that I'm reverting to how I was two years ago, and if you knew me back then you'd know that that is TOTAL bullshit, back then I'd have fits of, well, I suppose what they would be called is fits of insanity, I would slit my wrists and legs and smear blood all over my walls, bed, dresser, etc, so she says if I'm going to become like that again then she wants me to run away and not come back because she doesn't want to deal with me, well, the only LOGICAL reason of why she'd be saying this is because I haven't been cleaning up all her crap, and when I say her crap, I mean her crap, so yeah, I don't know what she wants from me, SHE WANTS MY SOUL, ahhhhhh...

Yeah, ok, anyway, Morgan is online, I think I just might go and annoy him, muaha..

- It's about this constant addiction, about this, greater demand, as I reach for the laugh with only seconds left, I'm getting deeper. And did you say that you were happy? 'Cause I won't leave you alone, I need the push to elude to things I have to say, to what I have to say. Theres a time and a place we hide behind, an alternate face, when the freak needs a nurse you comply, with the fools in mind, we're the people who fuck with your mind, when you sleep inside -

P.S Dear Mater irratates me when she's sleeping, she makes gross noises with her mouth and grinds her teeth.