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things are going really well i guess
i mean there's stll the same little things
that will forever & always bother me about life
because the more i sit back and wach life,
(sinse i'm a bum who dropped school & sits home all day & does nothing)
the more i relise, how fucked up socioty is, and how people
are soo fucking STUPIDDD! i mean honestly THANK YOU LORD
FOR BLESSING ME WITH COMMON SENSE.
i haven't really talked to anyone
in the last few days, salina & i haven't
talked, she found some guy she's been
talking to and ever sinse he came along
i'm out of the picture?.. we made plans
for the weekend, like alot of plans and
then she meets this guy online, and now
she's driving up to port huron to see him
and she's cancling our plans..
at first i wasn't upset about it, but then
i relised, .. what the hell..
but she does need to be happy more then anything
i hate seeing her so sad, and waching her cry.
so if that's what will make her happy, she deserves it.
i finialy got my stalkers to stop stalking me..
and i haven't even talked to anyone from school really
besides stephanie & what not..
i did so much cleaning today it's not even funny,
my hands are like raw from all the bleach i used
the house wasn't even dirty but my mom's boyfriend
is sitting here bitching at us, because he thinks
while he's at work we sleep all day and don't do anything
he's fucking retarted and i came an inch from screaming
at him last night, because he found my ciggs and he was
bitching at my mom for it.. umm no! he's fucking stupid
he's a hypicrit and i should fucking smack him in the
head with a monkey tit.
anyways, i haven't really talked to :-x sinse halloween night
besides like hey how's it going & what not whenever i have time
to go on the computer, and whenever he's not bizzy..
i'm so lost and confused about that situation, i keep thinking
about that night, and the way home, and how things are and how
he called me "HOMIE G" .. that was funny though...
lately i've been relising who are my real friends and who aren't
and honestly as much as mitchel gets on my nurvs some times he is
seriously my best friend.. and i mean that with every bit.
i mean he makes me laugh. and even when he hurts my feelings
he always apologizes or makes up for it, with doing some thing
really random, and i don't care what anyone says.. I LOVE RANDOMNESS
and i think that's some thing mitch should NEVER LOOSE. because
i've heard alot of people say he's so wierd and it's annoying,
i mean it can be annoying, when he's being really immature about it
but there's a difference between funny randomness, and crazy wierd
wtf, he's acting like he's two randomness.. but in the end
what it all comes down to, is he is such a nice person and i love him.
he is my best friend lol..
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i wanna move so far away and never talk to anyone ever again
and live in a hole by myself lol.. okay that's stupid
but i do wanna get the HELL out of this place, and away
from these FAKE ass people.. it's wierd because i always said
before, i wanna hang out with these people they look like fun,
or those people are the shit.. now i look around and that feeling
is melted down into .. eww what the fuck, i'm going to THROW UP MY LUNCH
ALL OVER THESE STUPID MOTHER FUCKING PEOPLE. :) i'm so seriouse
everywhere i look, in every direction, every group, every person
is just pissing me off, with there, NEED to be happy, and happyness is
meaning.. some thing so stupid, and the worse part about it is
i'm waching like 100 people stab eachother in the back from where
i'm seeing it, it reminds me of a domino effect and each domino is
a person with a knif in the other's back. it's discusting.. and i know
NO MATTER WHERE I GO, it will always be that way. it's just each person
has there own little thing about them that makes me wanna hurl..
anddd well, i need to get away and meet new people.
i just wanna be able to not have to keep hearing the
same people's shit, and look at the same nasty fucks that
i'm looking at every day of my pathetic life.
I NEED NEW PEOPLE!...
anyways, i'm noticing alot of hate is comming back to me
and i really have the urge to beat the living fuck out of someone.
i wanna seriously rip someone's fucking life apart and make them
cry every single day for the rest of there lifes. i'm mean and
i'm cold hearted all over again. and i love it..
because the colder i get, the happier i am.
anyways, i'm goin to wach made. bye
i mean there's stll the same little things
that will forever & always bother me about life
because the more i sit back and wach life,
(sinse i'm a bum who dropped school & sits home all day & does nothing)
the more i relise, how fucked up socioty is, and how people
are soo fucking STUPIDDD! i mean honestly THANK YOU LORD
FOR BLESSING ME WITH COMMON SENSE.
i haven't really talked to anyone
in the last few days, salina & i haven't
talked, she found some guy she's been
talking to and ever sinse he came along
i'm out of the picture?.. we made plans
for the weekend, like alot of plans and
then she meets this guy online, and now
she's driving up to port huron to see him
and she's cancling our plans..
at first i wasn't upset about it, but then
i relised, .. what the hell..
but she does need to be happy more then anything
i hate seeing her so sad, and waching her cry.
so if that's what will make her happy, she deserves it.
i finialy got my stalkers to stop stalking me..
and i haven't even talked to anyone from school really
besides stephanie & what not..
i did so much cleaning today it's not even funny,
my hands are like raw from all the bleach i used
the house wasn't even dirty but my mom's boyfriend
is sitting here bitching at us, because he thinks
while he's at work we sleep all day and don't do anything
he's fucking retarted and i came an inch from screaming
at him last night, because he found my ciggs and he was
bitching at my mom for it.. umm no! he's fucking stupid
he's a hypicrit and i should fucking smack him in the
head with a monkey tit.
anyways, i haven't really talked to :-x sinse halloween night
besides like hey how's it going & what not whenever i have time
to go on the computer, and whenever he's not bizzy..
i'm so lost and confused about that situation, i keep thinking
about that night, and the way home, and how things are and how
he called me "HOMIE G" .. that was funny though...
lately i've been relising who are my real friends and who aren't
and honestly as much as mitchel gets on my nurvs some times he is
seriously my best friend.. and i mean that with every bit.
i mean he makes me laugh. and even when he hurts my feelings
he always apologizes or makes up for it, with doing some thing
really random, and i don't care what anyone says.. I LOVE RANDOMNESS
and i think that's some thing mitch should NEVER LOOSE. because
i've heard alot of people say he's so wierd and it's annoying,
i mean it can be annoying, when he's being really immature about it
but there's a difference between funny randomness, and crazy wierd
wtf, he's acting like he's two randomness.. but in the end
what it all comes down to, is he is such a nice person and i love him.
he is my best friend lol..
blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahblalalalalalallalalaladlkf;lksd
i wanna move so far away and never talk to anyone ever again
and live in a hole by myself lol.. okay that's stupid
but i do wanna get the HELL out of this place, and away
from these FAKE ass people.. it's wierd because i always said
before, i wanna hang out with these people they look like fun,
or those people are the shit.. now i look around and that feeling
is melted down into .. eww what the fuck, i'm going to THROW UP MY LUNCH
ALL OVER THESE STUPID MOTHER FUCKING PEOPLE. :) i'm so seriouse
everywhere i look, in every direction, every group, every person
is just pissing me off, with there, NEED to be happy, and happyness is
meaning.. some thing so stupid, and the worse part about it is
i'm waching like 100 people stab eachother in the back from where
i'm seeing it, it reminds me of a domino effect and each domino is
a person with a knif in the other's back. it's discusting.. and i know
NO MATTER WHERE I GO, it will always be that way. it's just each person
has there own little thing about them that makes me wanna hurl..
anddd well, i need to get away and meet new people.
i just wanna be able to not have to keep hearing the
same people's shit, and look at the same nasty fucks that
i'm looking at every day of my pathetic life.
I NEED NEW PEOPLE!...
anyways, i'm noticing alot of hate is comming back to me
and i really have the urge to beat the living fuck out of someone.
i wanna seriously rip someone's fucking life apart and make them
cry every single day for the rest of there lifes. i'm mean and
i'm cold hearted all over again. and i love it..
because the colder i get, the happier i am.
anyways, i'm goin to wach made. bye