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Revising is kicking me in the face. It's amazing how time creeps up on you. A couple of weeks ago I was feeling relived that my Biology AS was over. And now I'm freaking out cause we have internals starting on Saturday (2andahalf hour long Chemistry paper? THAT'S gonna be fun). Some people are like "they don't matter, they're just internals" and others are freaking out because "they're what our predicted grades are gonna be based on! And if we do badly our predicted grades will be shit and then we'll never get any offers to universities and then we'll get shitty jobs and won't be able to afford a house and we'll starve and we'll DIE" well, I'm pretty sure that daddy will bail you out, darlings, or just, you know, BRIBE the universities into taking you. Anywho, so I'M now freaking out cause I don't know who to believe, and I hatehatehate not knowing which side to believe in. I think that's why I'm so blunt (I have a way with words, for reals). I just want the main argument to be out in the open, no pussying around with silly little frills that just annoy everyone. Apart from the people who love English literature. I mean, yea it's cool that you can read a book and know all what the people are saying, like how taking off a glove in the presence of a man can be seen as seduction, but really? There is a thing as too far. Like at the start of the last Harry Potter book, a friend of mine was all "it's so meaningful that Hedwig gets killed (sorry if I've just ruined it for anyone) when they're leaving because she was white and all that, and it's like his innocence and purity has been taken away as he's leaving his childhood behind". and while yea, that's quite a cool way of looking at it IT COULD JUST BE THAT THEY'RE EVIL PSYCHOPATHS WHO'VE KILLED HIS PET.
Uggggh.
I'm hot. and my head's poundingpoundingpounding from revising. i feel like i have a ball of angryenergy trapped in my core, bouncing round my organs, ricocheting (