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so life at the my parents house isn't too awfully terrible.
there are some big things about to happen with me.
1. GETTING CLEAN. ive come to terms that im an addict. and i cannot quit on my own.
and if there's anyone else out there thats ever been addicted to heroin you would understand.
i will be visiting Dr. Jackson at Rehab Arizona for drug counseling and a prescription for suboxone to keep me off the shit. heroin is definitely the WORST thing i ever fucked around with...and if i could go back in time i would never have done it. word of advice to everyone out there DONT EVEN TRY IT. NOT EVEN ONCE.
i pretty much hate all drugs except weed..[and mushrooms. LSD and XTC and K]other than that FUCK IT.
2. BACK TO SCHOOL. im starting at Everest college in april. for Medical Assisting. in EIGHT MONTHS. i will be a certified medical assistant. and a graduate of everest college. and i'll get to work at a doctors office and shit.
woot for that.
on the other hand. i hate how everything else is so complicated.
me and kody are doing pretty good.
now that we are clean shit between us is so much better.
let me tell you. a relationship between two addicts will not work.
but i just wish it was easier.
i wish he would trust me again.
i wish that he would understand that this time i am not going to do what i did again.
i know for a fact that kody is who i want to be with...
i wouldn't have given him another chance..and i wouldn't be trying so hard to fix myself and the things i do if i didn't want to be with him.
i just wish he'd understand.
i wish i could say the right thing to make everything perfect again.
thats all i want.
i love him with all my heart and NEVER want to lose him again.
i wont be able to handle it next time.
we've been together for almost two years..and i want it to last even longer.
no joke.
this boy has stolen my heart completely and i dont think i would ever be able to let someone else have it.
but im done.
peaceloveandHERB.
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