its been awhile since we've walked these streets...
ok so here is my official rant about "GOD"
dont read it if you dont wanna hear it.. simple as that...
i just dont get it.. maybe thats why i dont like it. in religions there are so many guidlelines in order to achieve salvation. why isnt it just that if your a good person you go to heaven and if your bad you go to hell.. the end. and how can some people believe in something that they never see any rewards for. i find it very hard to believe in a just and loving god if i see no proof. this "god" is supposed to know wat being human is like. so he obviously should know about how hard it is to believe in good if all you see is bad. or how hard it is to believe in somethign when there is nearly no proof of it except for a book that was written thousands of years ago. so why doesnt he just prove it. if he loves us so much why does he punish us for something someone did in the beggining of time. why does he let good people die when its not their time? why do we feel pain?? yea sure if you suffer you become stronger but if there was no pain we wouldnt have anything we would need to be stronger for! i mean i feel like all this time ive prayed my life away and it was all a waste. ive been cheated. because what do i get. a family that is struggling desprately to get by. a disease of the mind i didnt get myself out of UNTIL might i add i started thinking on my own and doubting god. a best friend that has come and saved me only to leave me soon. the judgement of people. a "father" who refuses to see me. you know wat i say? i say go through what ive been through. try driving past the one place you felt safe and was really a home, but had to leave it because of anothers selfishness. try driving up those streets where your father took you for a walk and told you he was leaving. try driving down that rode you chased after his car on. try looking in the window and seeing the kitchen where your mother told you he was a fraud. i look to the past i once thought was good. i think of those times i spent on my front yard in complete summer bliss. then i think of the repressed memories ive tried to hide away. i realize that i didnt have as good of a childhood as i thought i did. so now i am starting new. without a god. im starting out on my own. and if i come back then hey i was wrong. but right now this is who i am going to be. take it or leave it.
dont read it if you dont wanna hear it.. simple as that...
i just dont get it.. maybe thats why i dont like it. in religions there are so many guidlelines in order to achieve salvation. why isnt it just that if your a good person you go to heaven and if your bad you go to hell.. the end. and how can some people believe in something that they never see any rewards for. i find it very hard to believe in a just and loving god if i see no proof. this "god" is supposed to know wat being human is like. so he obviously should know about how hard it is to believe in good if all you see is bad. or how hard it is to believe in somethign when there is nearly no proof of it except for a book that was written thousands of years ago. so why doesnt he just prove it. if he loves us so much why does he punish us for something someone did in the beggining of time. why does he let good people die when its not their time? why do we feel pain?? yea sure if you suffer you become stronger but if there was no pain we wouldnt have anything we would need to be stronger for! i mean i feel like all this time ive prayed my life away and it was all a waste. ive been cheated. because what do i get. a family that is struggling desprately to get by. a disease of the mind i didnt get myself out of UNTIL might i add i started thinking on my own and doubting god. a best friend that has come and saved me only to leave me soon. the judgement of people. a "father" who refuses to see me. you know wat i say? i say go through what ive been through. try driving past the one place you felt safe and was really a home, but had to leave it because of anothers selfishness. try driving up those streets where your father took you for a walk and told you he was leaving. try driving down that rode you chased after his car on. try looking in the window and seeing the kitchen where your mother told you he was a fraud. i look to the past i once thought was good. i think of those times i spent on my front yard in complete summer bliss. then i think of the repressed memories ive tried to hide away. i realize that i didnt have as good of a childhood as i thought i did. so now i am starting new. without a god. im starting out on my own. and if i come back then hey i was wrong. but right now this is who i am going to be. take it or leave it.