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WHY does the bell on campus go off at 9 on Sunday night? It's as if to say "haha, 12 hours left until the week officially starts....you're soooo screwed." Fuckers.
Anyways...I have the STUPIDEST smile on my face. Why? A boy emailed me :) Not just any boy. A CERTAIN boy. I question everything about my relationship life, my self worth, my worthiness in general and BAM something happens. Lessons learned and I'll take it a step at a time. I'm just shocked I'm even at this point. How often do you crush on and off since September and have something develop in May? All I can do is giggle and smile like I'm 14 again. I'm crossing my fingers this time.
I have sooo much to do over the next 4 weeks, this is insane. And someone brought up the fact I have to think about moving out soon too. I just moved in here - I don't want to pack everything up. I have two weekends till Memorial day - I'll wait until then until I worry about leaving campus. Wait to worry until then abou wondering how I'll function without seeing people every day, with living off of homemade food, having to wake up on my own...and actually live with other people.
Tommorow: Wake up, hit all three classes, meet with TA to dicuss extending deadline on a paper, meet with chem prof, eat at some point, study bio, go to lab until its far too late to ever be in a chemistry class, eat again, study more, realize insomnia's kicked in, and maybe sleep.
....yeah, and to think that, had I gone to wsu, I could be kickin it at home right now worry and stress free. I don't need reassurance I'm better off here. The idea of "summer vacation" is just so appealing.
By the way. If I get one more phone call from a certain non-college friend who doesn't seem to undertand the concept of college despite his aspirations to get to college, I'm going to let it all out on him and tell him EXACTLY what he needs to hear. I'm a good person and all, but sometimes people just need to realize what certain aspects of life are about. And, I'm sorry, but you my dear just don't understand. ARGGHH.
And with that its back to chemistry. I'm determined to pass this class. It WILL happen.
Anyways...I have the STUPIDEST smile on my face. Why? A boy emailed me :) Not just any boy. A CERTAIN boy. I question everything about my relationship life, my self worth, my worthiness in general and BAM something happens. Lessons learned and I'll take it a step at a time. I'm just shocked I'm even at this point. How often do you crush on and off since September and have something develop in May? All I can do is giggle and smile like I'm 14 again. I'm crossing my fingers this time.
I have sooo much to do over the next 4 weeks, this is insane. And someone brought up the fact I have to think about moving out soon too. I just moved in here - I don't want to pack everything up. I have two weekends till Memorial day - I'll wait until then until I worry about leaving campus. Wait to worry until then abou wondering how I'll function without seeing people every day, with living off of homemade food, having to wake up on my own...and actually live with other people.
Tommorow: Wake up, hit all three classes, meet with TA to dicuss extending deadline on a paper, meet with chem prof, eat at some point, study bio, go to lab until its far too late to ever be in a chemistry class, eat again, study more, realize insomnia's kicked in, and maybe sleep.
....yeah, and to think that, had I gone to wsu, I could be kickin it at home right now worry and stress free. I don't need reassurance I'm better off here. The idea of "summer vacation" is just so appealing.
By the way. If I get one more phone call from a certain non-college friend who doesn't seem to undertand the concept of college despite his aspirations to get to college, I'm going to let it all out on him and tell him EXACTLY what he needs to hear. I'm a good person and all, but sometimes people just need to realize what certain aspects of life are about. And, I'm sorry, but you my dear just don't understand. ARGGHH.
And with that its back to chemistry. I'm determined to pass this class. It WILL happen.