Everyone can say "I told you so..."
So my last lj entry was about Andy and I breaking up, and how I thought it was going to be the end of my life.
Well we didn't break up then, but we did yesterday. Which was about a week later.
And to tell you the truth, I do really feel like it's the end of my life. I can't think about anything else, ever. I don't think anything's funny. I'll laugh about things, but not really laugh. It's weird to not hear from him every couple of hours, to not know what his plans are for the week and when he's going to work or not.
Last night, when I was trying to sleep (which was very very unsuccessful) I thought about girls who go out and find "rebound" guys to hook up with or something. But I don't want to kiss anyone else. I don't want anything intimate with anyone but him, ever again.
My friends have been great, but I know they're going to get sick of it. And then what do I do? I know they'll tell me I'm beautiful and funny and amazing and everything a guy could want, but I won't believe them. I apologize to my friends in advance, because this is going to take awhile.
I'm heartbroken. And I know it's so cliche to say. It's even cliche to say it's cliche to say I'm heartbroken, but there's no other way to say it. It's the worst feeling in the world and I hope I never make anyone feel like this. I'm sorry to anyone who has ever felt this. And if you never have, avoid it as much as you possibly can.
I'm so pathetic, I'm sorry. But my eyes feel swollen and they burn and I'm already sick of being sad. I can't help it though, because I feel so weird.
I don't know what to do.
Suggestions?
Well we didn't break up then, but we did yesterday. Which was about a week later.
And to tell you the truth, I do really feel like it's the end of my life. I can't think about anything else, ever. I don't think anything's funny. I'll laugh about things, but not really laugh. It's weird to not hear from him every couple of hours, to not know what his plans are for the week and when he's going to work or not.
Last night, when I was trying to sleep (which was very very unsuccessful) I thought about girls who go out and find "rebound" guys to hook up with or something. But I don't want to kiss anyone else. I don't want anything intimate with anyone but him, ever again.
My friends have been great, but I know they're going to get sick of it. And then what do I do? I know they'll tell me I'm beautiful and funny and amazing and everything a guy could want, but I won't believe them. I apologize to my friends in advance, because this is going to take awhile.
I'm heartbroken. And I know it's so cliche to say. It's even cliche to say it's cliche to say I'm heartbroken, but there's no other way to say it. It's the worst feeling in the world and I hope I never make anyone feel like this. I'm sorry to anyone who has ever felt this. And if you never have, avoid it as much as you possibly can.
I'm so pathetic, I'm sorry. But my eyes feel swollen and they burn and I'm already sick of being sad. I can't help it though, because I feel so weird.
I don't know what to do.
Suggestions?