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I'm actually writing in here for once HOORAY! I've never really had anything to write about and I still don't but who cares.
I'm bored bored boooooored, right now because I'm at Bens house and its 10:15 in the morning and he's not out of bed and theres nothing else I can do besides come on here and even that I had to work myself up to do. I'm always afraid his parents are going to get mad or tell me to get off the internet coz they need the phone lol. Ben was like have you ever heard them say that to anyone other than Nick? So on that note, I decided I would come on.
Today is going to be oober boring, Ben has to sleep all day because he has to work all night! I hate when he's on nights because all he wants to do is sleep, well I would too I guess. But, you can't do anything with him, and when you do he's all cranky about it. Friday I kicked him out of bed, he opened his eyes because I purposly was wiggeling around in the bed to wake him up and than BAM, I smoked him in the arm and yelled, "WAKE THE HELL UP YOU RATS ASS!" And he might have been mad lol.
Yesterday we went to the frink centre and we went on this huge walk in the woods. It was pretty fun, but it was really cold. Ontop of that, I had to buy new winter boots because I never had any so I bought a pair and they suck so bad. I never want to wear them again. They gave me a rug-burn-like rash around my legs. I have a ring of fire on each leg, and the one is actually blistering. I thought there was some creepy person waiting to kill me in the woods as well because we were walking along and these other foot prints went off the path and right into who-know-where? Ben was trying to lift this cut down tree up and I was like SHIT, theres someone in the woods, I'm scared I wanna go home now lol. And it sounded like there was someone cutting down wood or doing something because there was no way that was an animal, so we left on the account of my patheticness.
Ok, I got a letter back the other day from Loyalist college saying they got my application. The crazy thing was, they got my application the day before...that's pretty fast. I'm still waiting for st.lawrence to send me one,not that I really care if I ever get it because I don't even want to go there. I hope I get into the DSW course at Loyalist so bad. If I do my life will be made...haha PUN!
So, last night while I was on facebook, I was reading other peoples wall posts and I happen to come across one where Ms.Everybody-loves-me-and-I-have-to-be-centre-of-attention-or-else-i-think-everyone-hates-me-and-im-not-a-whore-if-i-slept-with-a-complete-stranger-at-sarah-toppings-party, wrote. I laughed so hard at the post she wrote because the person she wrote it too, I'm pretty sure she cut up the most when they were friends. She made it sound like they were the best friends and that she never said a mean word about her. Now I have done my fair share of cutting friends up, but I would never in a life-time message someone and pretend that everything was perfect.
Luckily I dont worry about that stuff anymore. I already know who my real friends are so its all good! It used to bug me at first and I always felt like I was the bad friend because I never called anyone or I would say stuff about them. But there was a reason why I never did and it was because they never called me and I'm pretty sure I've been talked about more than I will ever know. In all honesty, I'm glad high school is over with. I'm sure college will be the same, but I have another 7 months for that lol not to mention I've had the worst things u cud ever say to someone said to me so really I've heard the worst, I've seen it, and I've felt so I'm sure this time I'll pick my friends more wisely...at least I hope so.
LAUGHING OUT LOUD, that was the most serious thing I have ever said in my life, other than telling the one person I hated more than anything (ashley) off. That was pretty a pretty serious day for me. I think its funny now. I'm still kicking myself in the ass for ever backing down and saying sorry. Sarah Topping was right, I was such a wuss. Well, it wasnt that I was a wuss I was just worried about prom and the remainder of the school year and being awkward. I used her I guess u can say. Shoot me, I'm such a bad friend.
Theres always the one friend in that group I felt bad for. She had the worst of it. I said some pretty mean things to her and behind her and wow I wish I never said them! I'm sorry this blog sucks but I think I need to get things off my chest. She was used a lot as well and taking advantage of. If that would have been me, I think I would have said something and snapped on EVERYONE. I read somewhere this saying and I can't remember where but it said, "The only reason we have enemies is because we did something right-we stuck up for ourselves..." and its true. The only reason people hate you is because you did something to stick up for yourself, you made a point of view that someone didnt like hearing or seeing or whatever it was. Think about everyone who hates you and think about why they hate you...
Long journal eh? Well, I'm really trying to waste time. My fingers are freezing. I hate Bens basement it sucks, its ALWAYS cold down here. Yay I have like 5 days off work! Boo, that means Im gunna have a shitty pay!
Ok well I'm done writing :D
I'm bored bored boooooored, right now because I'm at Bens house and its 10:15 in the morning and he's not out of bed and theres nothing else I can do besides come on here and even that I had to work myself up to do. I'm always afraid his parents are going to get mad or tell me to get off the internet coz they need the phone lol. Ben was like have you ever heard them say that to anyone other than Nick? So on that note, I decided I would come on.
Today is going to be oober boring, Ben has to sleep all day because he has to work all night! I hate when he's on nights because all he wants to do is sleep, well I would too I guess. But, you can't do anything with him, and when you do he's all cranky about it. Friday I kicked him out of bed, he opened his eyes because I purposly was wiggeling around in the bed to wake him up and than BAM, I smoked him in the arm and yelled, "WAKE THE HELL UP YOU RATS ASS!" And he might have been mad lol.
Yesterday we went to the frink centre and we went on this huge walk in the woods. It was pretty fun, but it was really cold. Ontop of that, I had to buy new winter boots because I never had any so I bought a pair and they suck so bad. I never want to wear them again. They gave me a rug-burn-like rash around my legs. I have a ring of fire on each leg, and the one is actually blistering. I thought there was some creepy person waiting to kill me in the woods as well because we were walking along and these other foot prints went off the path and right into who-know-where? Ben was trying to lift this cut down tree up and I was like SHIT, theres someone in the woods, I'm scared I wanna go home now lol. And it sounded like there was someone cutting down wood or doing something because there was no way that was an animal, so we left on the account of my patheticness.
Ok, I got a letter back the other day from Loyalist college saying they got my application. The crazy thing was, they got my application the day before...that's pretty fast. I'm still waiting for st.lawrence to send me one,not that I really care if I ever get it because I don't even want to go there. I hope I get into the DSW course at Loyalist so bad. If I do my life will be made...haha PUN!
So, last night while I was on facebook, I was reading other peoples wall posts and I happen to come across one where Ms.Everybody-loves-me-and-I-have-to-be-centre-of-attention-or-else-i-think-everyone-hates-me-and-im-not-a-whore-if-i-slept-with-a-complete-stranger-at-sarah-toppings-party, wrote. I laughed so hard at the post she wrote because the person she wrote it too, I'm pretty sure she cut up the most when they were friends. She made it sound like they were the best friends and that she never said a mean word about her. Now I have done my fair share of cutting friends up, but I would never in a life-time message someone and pretend that everything was perfect.
Luckily I dont worry about that stuff anymore. I already know who my real friends are so its all good! It used to bug me at first and I always felt like I was the bad friend because I never called anyone or I would say stuff about them. But there was a reason why I never did and it was because they never called me and I'm pretty sure I've been talked about more than I will ever know. In all honesty, I'm glad high school is over with. I'm sure college will be the same, but I have another 7 months for that lol not to mention I've had the worst things u cud ever say to someone said to me so really I've heard the worst, I've seen it, and I've felt so I'm sure this time I'll pick my friends more wisely...at least I hope so.
LAUGHING OUT LOUD, that was the most serious thing I have ever said in my life, other than telling the one person I hated more than anything (ashley) off. That was pretty a pretty serious day for me. I think its funny now. I'm still kicking myself in the ass for ever backing down and saying sorry. Sarah Topping was right, I was such a wuss. Well, it wasnt that I was a wuss I was just worried about prom and the remainder of the school year and being awkward. I used her I guess u can say. Shoot me, I'm such a bad friend.
Theres always the one friend in that group I felt bad for. She had the worst of it. I said some pretty mean things to her and behind her and wow I wish I never said them! I'm sorry this blog sucks but I think I need to get things off my chest. She was used a lot as well and taking advantage of. If that would have been me, I think I would have said something and snapped on EVERYONE. I read somewhere this saying and I can't remember where but it said, "The only reason we have enemies is because we did something right-we stuck up for ourselves..." and its true. The only reason people hate you is because you did something to stick up for yourself, you made a point of view that someone didnt like hearing or seeing or whatever it was. Think about everyone who hates you and think about why they hate you...
Long journal eh? Well, I'm really trying to waste time. My fingers are freezing. I hate Bens basement it sucks, its ALWAYS cold down here. Yay I have like 5 days off work! Boo, that means Im gunna have a shitty pay!
Ok well I'm done writing :D