its been a while...

[xup_and_gox]

well its sure has been a while...almost forgot about this thing. lotsa things have changed. almost close to completely moving out. :( ::tear:: things have gone pretty bad with my dad (unfortunately the timing sucksass as well). my grades are dropping...and i think i have neglected a few people i'd really hate to lose. and now is when i need them the most so i prayyyy that they understand. i started some counceling in school after the news about my dad. i mean i've been handling everything so well..and i do a great job at hiding sad feelings...because no one has noticed that anyhtings wrong..but now. it's getting harder to do. so i think im dropping art so i have more time. but yea. ughhh i just miss the way things were despite the fact that i hated it sometimes. i just want everything to be okay again and i guess i need a neutral party to talk to?? i dk. i'll try it. i'll try anything at this point.
i just got back from florida last night...big softball tourney. we went 2-2-2...not so bad. school bout 2 more days then off to salem which i am lookin forward to...im roomin with nikki lyss n christina so it should be fun...frannys not going and im upset bc it was our original intention since last year to sit on the bus and room together witch woulda been awesome...but hey maybe next time when theres no soccer. :( welll i guess thats about it for now? i needa go do some hw. bc i have soooo much to do :(
xoxo