A girl cries while she practises violin~
Yes so im sitting here again like nearly everyother night pretty drunk off my face desperately hopeing alchol will numb the pain as well as my body and prehaps if im lucky slip into a coma.
last night was awsome and unfortunately i knew id wake up today and that the day would not be any where near as good in comparison.
i couldnt even be botherd to roll out of bed and make my self "usefull" and also i knew my sisters over weight friend would be here and i think shes the most little vile shit ever she just looks at me in horror.seriousely i know shes like 9 but she needs to drop a stone or so.
i after about 2 and a half hours of lying in my bed contemplateing life and thinking what to do did manage to get out have a ciggy and steal the dvd player and go straight back to my room where for a good 4 hours tried to kick my hangover,smoke and generally make a pig of myself while watching bruce almighty.the film i found was such a let down and ive noticed in recent times the films that are being produced kind of suck.
on a quick note josh homm is it?is on tele doing an acoustic version on nobodyknows which is rarther the sex.
anyways after this i decided to par take in my favorite pass time.sitting down useing this contraption iam now doing anything near productive and feeling more of a slob then ever.i swear ill look back at my "youth" and ill rember is typeing whilst i drank and smoked myself to oblivion.how dirty.i really need to be more productive.my dad got a phone call from my uncle and was being an utter twat and all hes said now so far is my grandmas really sick and is being taken into hospital which is a shit because i feel guilty i hardly ever see her anymore but also so shit because i havent got a clue whats happening to her and he wont tell me but i know its something bad because ive never seen him like that,although can it really be that bad if she can wait to go to hospital tommorow?i dont know im far to self indluged =|
on a more up-tempo note im looking forward to tommorow well techinqually today if jamie isnt a lazy bastard and does come out and also im feeling happier because i got to speak to dani who seems to have an amazing personality as well ahem super foxy.after a good hour i think of speaking to her i finally with help from nici really lol got the guts to ask her if she wanted to do something some time.i put it so lamely.but well she said shes going to blissys gig friday and we can do something as well if i wanted which was awsome i think though well be meeting befor blissys gig which is amazing.i do really hope this evloves into something more then the crap one or wow if im lucky two night kiss a lassy thingys because i really can not be botherd with that crap of just getting with a lassy then never speaking to them again.i actually woke up and as pathetic as is was happy i kissed her because im used to haveing to wake up and cope with a hangover then realize what ive done and just groan and want to go back to sleep.shes stupidly good looking and a nice person?im worried now because shell probberly ditch me then the usual of vice versa.well see anyways
franz ferdinand are on tele doing a live performance and the little respect i had for them now has been completely pissed away by seeing there almost embarressing performance.it was hideouse.
i also re kindled my love for brighteyes everyone must hear a lover i dont have to love.
well see what tommorow brings i guess thats about as optamstic as iam at the moement,what a whineing bleatch i have become i feel like a preteen goth who slits there arms for attention and consistantly crys in the vain attempt they will be noticed.
last night was awsome and unfortunately i knew id wake up today and that the day would not be any where near as good in comparison.
i couldnt even be botherd to roll out of bed and make my self "usefull" and also i knew my sisters over weight friend would be here and i think shes the most little vile shit ever she just looks at me in horror.seriousely i know shes like 9 but she needs to drop a stone or so.
i after about 2 and a half hours of lying in my bed contemplateing life and thinking what to do did manage to get out have a ciggy and steal the dvd player and go straight back to my room where for a good 4 hours tried to kick my hangover,smoke and generally make a pig of myself while watching bruce almighty.the film i found was such a let down and ive noticed in recent times the films that are being produced kind of suck.
on a quick note josh homm is it?is on tele doing an acoustic version on nobodyknows which is rarther the sex.
anyways after this i decided to par take in my favorite pass time.sitting down useing this contraption iam now doing anything near productive and feeling more of a slob then ever.i swear ill look back at my "youth" and ill rember is typeing whilst i drank and smoked myself to oblivion.how dirty.i really need to be more productive.my dad got a phone call from my uncle and was being an utter twat and all hes said now so far is my grandmas really sick and is being taken into hospital which is a shit because i feel guilty i hardly ever see her anymore but also so shit because i havent got a clue whats happening to her and he wont tell me but i know its something bad because ive never seen him like that,although can it really be that bad if she can wait to go to hospital tommorow?i dont know im far to self indluged =|
on a more up-tempo note im looking forward to tommorow well techinqually today if jamie isnt a lazy bastard and does come out and also im feeling happier because i got to speak to dani who seems to have an amazing personality as well ahem super foxy.after a good hour i think of speaking to her i finally with help from nici really lol got the guts to ask her if she wanted to do something some time.i put it so lamely.but well she said shes going to blissys gig friday and we can do something as well if i wanted which was awsome i think though well be meeting befor blissys gig which is amazing.i do really hope this evloves into something more then the crap one or wow if im lucky two night kiss a lassy thingys because i really can not be botherd with that crap of just getting with a lassy then never speaking to them again.i actually woke up and as pathetic as is was happy i kissed her because im used to haveing to wake up and cope with a hangover then realize what ive done and just groan and want to go back to sleep.shes stupidly good looking and a nice person?im worried now because shell probberly ditch me then the usual of vice versa.well see anyways
franz ferdinand are on tele doing a live performance and the little respect i had for them now has been completely pissed away by seeing there almost embarressing performance.it was hideouse.
i also re kindled my love for brighteyes everyone must hear a lover i dont have to love.
well see what tommorow brings i guess thats about as optamstic as iam at the moement,what a whineing bleatch i have become i feel like a preteen goth who slits there arms for attention and consistantly crys in the vain attempt they will be noticed.