A quick thought because I should be doing my PILES of homework ...
My host brother, Marc, just came home and we had a brief conversation that started with dieting and ended in love :). He said, because he had just come home from the gym and he was hungry but wasn't going to eat until lunchtime, that losing weight and getting used to eating only what you should is "all in your head." Which is true, to my way of thinking. I said that everything is in your head, or at least your perception of it is.
Then he said something that shook me up a bit in a good way. He said that love isn't "aqui." (Pointing to his head) And that lust, or la lujuria, isn't in your head either but in your ... well, you know ... business. And then he said that when love is in your head, and not in your heart where it rightfully belongs, that it's not love. It's obsession.
This is a profound theme for me right now. I've been living in Spain for almost a month and a half and I've been thinking a lot about my relationship with Scott. I could go on forever about it but I don't have the time right now as I should be - NEED to be - working on the huge amount of things I have waiting for me to accomplish. But suffice it to say that I have been thinking about the love that exist(s)(ed) between Dave and myself and appreciating it more as a result of the different type of love, or maybe non-existant love that was really just lust all along, that exists between Scott and myself.
It's like my friend Britney said, and also Kalev ... maybe I've put Scott on a pedestal in a way and I was blind to what we honestly had. I mean, we have a great time together and because of this distance I might also be forgetting how easy and wonderful that made my life. What this all comes down to is that nothing in life stays the same, and you just have to accept that and try to turn your silly brain off once in a while.
Out to do homework!!!
Then he said something that shook me up a bit in a good way. He said that love isn't "aqui." (Pointing to his head) And that lust, or la lujuria, isn't in your head either but in your ... well, you know ... business. And then he said that when love is in your head, and not in your heart where it rightfully belongs, that it's not love. It's obsession.
This is a profound theme for me right now. I've been living in Spain for almost a month and a half and I've been thinking a lot about my relationship with Scott. I could go on forever about it but I don't have the time right now as I should be - NEED to be - working on the huge amount of things I have waiting for me to accomplish. But suffice it to say that I have been thinking about the love that exist(s)(ed) between Dave and myself and appreciating it more as a result of the different type of love, or maybe non-existant love that was really just lust all along, that exists between Scott and myself.
It's like my friend Britney said, and also Kalev ... maybe I've put Scott on a pedestal in a way and I was blind to what we honestly had. I mean, we have a great time together and because of this distance I might also be forgetting how easy and wonderful that made my life. What this all comes down to is that nothing in life stays the same, and you just have to accept that and try to turn your silly brain off once in a while.
Out to do homework!!!