All I want is love for Christmas

Dec 16, 2008 13:38

My stepmom has figured out how to text. She sent me a joke and then asked me to keep a secret. She's perming her hair on Monday and she doesn't want me to tell my dad because she wants to surprise him. She hopes that he'll like it. And she's hoping that he'll tell her she's beautiful and kiss her and smile at her. She wants to feel like she's pleasantly surprised him and she wants to feel his love for her radiating as he holds her and smiles into her eyes, admiring her beautiful hair and his beautiful wife. Of course, she didn't tell me all of that last part. But I know it's true because I'm a woman and I'm a girlfriend and I want to impress my man too. I want to feel wanted and loved and admired from afar like a goddess when I put work into my appearance.

I hate Christmas time. I hate it because my family doesn't have a lot of money and during times like these there's even less to go around. Yet we still feel pressured to buy, buy, buy, and it stresses us all out, it makes us fight with each other more. So the season of giving tears us down and it's very ironic considering what this season should be about. I wish it wasn't about stress and financial strain, but instead the simple pleasure of being with family and of loving each other.

For Christmas all I want to give or receive is love. I want to give my family the ability to love themselves and to love each other. The world is hard and cold and I don't understand the tendency to beat each other up with hatred or with insults or even with the failure to notice a new hairdo or a certain sparkle in the eye of a loved one. I hope that for Christmas my family can take care of themselves and love each other enough to take care of each other as well.
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