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[xubmyloverx]

Can people really change? Or are we perpetually the same? Will I ever think differently or will the same things stay in my mind no matter what I do? Is it worth it to try and fix it or to put a lot of energy into doing it a different way

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[prada_freak]

i miss you and i love you. i think that it's good that you're introspective and that you recognize that there are energies in your life that don't bring you the feelings you want to have -- and that don't bring out the best person you are.

this recognition is good. serious introspection is also good. continue to do this. don't get frustrated but just work through it -- mentally. You will come to an answer if you seek for it diligently. i don't know what else to tell you because the way i find my focus and straighten the arrow to my compass is through direction from God. he is our best friend and if you honestly seek for his guidance in enlightening you to your path He will never turn you away. never. His hand is always outstretched to you.

i love you. i miss you. india is amazing and i know you would love this place. it does something for your soul that can't really be explained. really i think it's just about having time away from diversions with yourself and only yourself to really contemplate what your life is all about and what you want from it. then you have the time and calm to be able to formulate a legitimate plan to accomplish those things.

peace and love.

M.

[xubmyloverx]

I love you so much Madi. I am so glad that you're having the experience that you're having and I feel lucky that you even take time to respond to my LJ whining :). I need to find something like God or who/what ever because when Dave was in jail I spent a lot of time on my spirituality and it was one of the few things that gave me peace. I know that I can't do this alone and I'm sick of the shit.

Keep writing because I love your adventures ....

xox

B