"Is it? It is! THE MEGA BEAST! Let me at her..."
I know... I know... It has been a very long time since I updated. School has consumed a lot of my time, but here I am on Sunday, still needing to study. However, I MUST update to get something off my chest.
*begin rant*
My mom can be the biggest fucking mega bitch I know. I will NEVER be good enough for her! I can't wait until one day, when I have enough money, to look her in the eye and say I'm moving out. I feel so restricted. She holds my car and money issues over my head every day! It really pisses me off that I don't make enough money. I am reconsidering my future employment under the CIA for law school. Lawyers make more money, and well I need to be one of the richest people in the world to prove her wrong. She always revolves everything around money. It's all about money. Money = Happiness in her eyes. It really bothers me about that. Another thing, I have voiced my concern about my vision to her today, and that was a mistake. "You just want glasses to think you are cool." Guess what bitch, last time I checked, glasses weren't cool. So, I'm going to pay for them myself and tell her to fuck off. I onced loved my mom, but when she does things like lecture me about money, tell me how stupid I am, and make me feel like I'll never be good enough, makes me feel like I am unworthy in her eyes. That really sucks when all your life you work on making your parents proud. I'll never be good enough, for them, for anyone. If they only knew the secrets I hold, I definately would be disowned, and forced to change my name. I really wouldn't care because I think that they hate me anyways! Like just now, the phone rang, she says, "will someone get that?" So, I get up to get it, and then she goes, "Will someone get the PHONE?" (in a very hastily tone). Well because I'm going off right now, I SCREAMED at the top of my lungs, "WILL YOU GIVE ME A MINUTE." Yeah, wasn't the thing to say. I'm done with my mom. I am going to pay the debts that I owe, and if I can manage, give her rent to live here, and I will live my life seperately. Eventually I'll move out. She has smothered me too much through high school, and now, she has really did some damage by doing nothing but kick my self-esteem repeatedly.
*end rant*
Side Note: I apologize for those of you who I have been neglecting online. I'm sorry I'm never on anymore. Kate, you need to add me to your buddy list (FSJase) and IM me sometime. I had to get a new screen name because AOL messeded up. And you need to give me your phone number because I had to get a new phone because my other one died, and they couldn't save my numbers. Have a good day!
*begin rant*
My mom can be the biggest fucking mega bitch I know. I will NEVER be good enough for her! I can't wait until one day, when I have enough money, to look her in the eye and say I'm moving out. I feel so restricted. She holds my car and money issues over my head every day! It really pisses me off that I don't make enough money. I am reconsidering my future employment under the CIA for law school. Lawyers make more money, and well I need to be one of the richest people in the world to prove her wrong. She always revolves everything around money. It's all about money. Money = Happiness in her eyes. It really bothers me about that. Another thing, I have voiced my concern about my vision to her today, and that was a mistake. "You just want glasses to think you are cool." Guess what bitch, last time I checked, glasses weren't cool. So, I'm going to pay for them myself and tell her to fuck off. I onced loved my mom, but when she does things like lecture me about money, tell me how stupid I am, and make me feel like I'll never be good enough, makes me feel like I am unworthy in her eyes. That really sucks when all your life you work on making your parents proud. I'll never be good enough, for them, for anyone. If they only knew the secrets I hold, I definately would be disowned, and forced to change my name. I really wouldn't care because I think that they hate me anyways! Like just now, the phone rang, she says, "will someone get that?" So, I get up to get it, and then she goes, "Will someone get the PHONE?" (in a very hastily tone). Well because I'm going off right now, I SCREAMED at the top of my lungs, "WILL YOU GIVE ME A MINUTE." Yeah, wasn't the thing to say. I'm done with my mom. I am going to pay the debts that I owe, and if I can manage, give her rent to live here, and I will live my life seperately. Eventually I'll move out. She has smothered me too much through high school, and now, she has really did some damage by doing nothing but kick my self-esteem repeatedly.
*end rant*
Side Note: I apologize for those of you who I have been neglecting online. I'm sorry I'm never on anymore. Kate, you need to add me to your buddy list (FSJase) and IM me sometime. I had to get a new screen name because AOL messeded up. And you need to give me your phone number because I had to get a new phone because my other one died, and they couldn't save my numbers. Have a good day!