im trying really hard to not go back because im scared of being alone. I know I'll never be happy if i do go back. I keep reminding myself that i'm better off this way
So i keep busy
thats all i can do...

I feel trapped
no easy way out
and things just keep getting harder and harder.

It's like this...
I have a boyfriend
hes been treating me pretty shitty lately.
I know he loves me
I know I love him
he can be really sweet, and he can be a real asshole.
I Just think certain things about him will never change and I'm not ok with that.

The apologies get old, especially when over the same things.

I don't know what to do.

SO tomorrow night im going to make dinner for Scott and try to workout the problems we've been having.

i dont know how i keep going on like this

it doesnt even seem to phase him
i work all the time now and i never see him except twice a week
he doesnt even care cant even talk to me for 20 minutes
we'll seehow long this lasts...

so today, i went to lunch with my dad, most we've talked in years, he gave me moeny for school. idk it was weird :/

so last weekend was pretty fun

friday night me and scott went and hung out with mason, garett, and megan chilled in the hot tub at masons house

saturday, it was girls night me, megan, megans sister, ashley and paula hung out at megans house while the boys couldnt come over, so they all hung out together.
w00t 1 week till campout on the island

hes everything i'd wany or need <3

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